how reality kills the dream by E2

how reality kills the dream

published 7.9.2018
158 poems that tell a story. 

prolog

there r two kinds of girls
the ones for vanity n pleasures of the flesh
n ones to girlfriend n love

i simply failed
horribly.

ended up a hostage
to my own
dream.

spent 166 days
as a living witness
to how my
dream slowly
died

whilst trying to enjoy
any hint of happiness.

all written as experienced
not knowing what
the future nor the truth is.

including those
deep dark thoughts
one discovers
when furiously blinded by
anger n or confusion

instead of hiding these
beautiful thoughts
n writing about rivers
n birds singing..
i bleed them
onto paper.

my words here r not pretty
but they r honest
n will make u
discuss me, love me, hate me
hate her n pity me.

i promise u my dear reader
this book will make
u feel.

open a bottle of wine
enjoy my pain
n try not
to feel any
shame.

yours
E2


-- -- -- few samples from the book

when she loves

when someone says
she loves u

ur only goal
is to
not 
fuck it up

just fuck 
her

without 
fucking
her
up.

or

u could
try
that love thing
maybe?

friends n cigarettes

u do not have any 
friends 

u just burn  
through people  
like 
cigarettes.. 

each person
serves a purpose
fixes a need

u light them up
n see them 
burn.

torch another..