When the Light Found Me: A Spiritual Memoir on the Dark Night of the Soul, Healing, and Becoming Whole
There is a moment before an awakening that no one really warns you about.
It does not always arrive as light. Sometimes, it arrives as everything beginning to fall apart—the identity you built, the relationships you once relied on, and the version of “fine” you had been carrying for years. It can feel like standing among the pieces of a life you once knew, wondering whether you are breaking down—or finally beginning to see.
When the Light Found Me is Ade Triyani’s deeply personal account of that unraveling, and of the journey of slowly finding her way back to herself.
This is not a book that gives you a spiritual checklist or tells you how to awaken.
It is a memoir rooted in lived experience—the thousand small goodbyes, the collapse of a life that no longer felt aligned, and the slow, sometimes painful, sometimes beautiful process of remembering who you are beneath everything you have been taught to be.
From childhood loneliness to a soul-deep reckoning. From prayer and inner inquiry to sound healing and stillness. From learning to let go to a final pilgrimage to Bali.
Ade shares the experiences, questions, practices, and discoveries that shaped her understanding of healing, consciousness, and what it means to come home to yourself.
Inside the Book
Alongside the story, you will find reflections, prayers, meditations, journaling practices, insights from classes and teachings, and resources to explore along your own journey. (Download the preview to take a look inside.)
- 13 chapters exploring awakening, healing, consciousness, and coming home to yourself
- A reflection on the Dark Night of the Soul and how periods of darkness can become invitations to look within
- Thoughts on changing collective consciousness and why we may begin questioning the way we have always lived
- Reflections on words, prayer, and intention, and how they can shape our inner world
- Exploration of manifestation and inner wholeness, including the difference between creating what we desire and finding peace with who we are
- Experiences with sound healing and stillness, and creating space for what words sometimes cannot reach
- Reflections on letting go, choosing yourself, and returning to your own truth
- Practical reflections and resources you can return to as you continue exploring your own path
This Book May Be For You If...
You have ever felt that the life you built no longer feels like home.
You have been told you are too sensitive, too emotional, or too much.
You have started quietly questioning things you once believed without question.
You are moving through a period of change and wondering whether what feels like an ending might actually be the beginning of something deeper.
Or perhaps you simply have a feeling that there is more to life than the version you have been living.
Written with honesty, tenderness, and reflection, When the Light Found Me is not about having all the answers.
It is about asking the questions.
- It is about what happens when the life you thought you wanted begins to fall away—and, somewhere underneath it all, you begin to find yourself.
Author Bio
Ade Triyani is a writer whose own unraveling — and the slow, deliberate healing that followed — became the foundation for When the Light Found Me. Her writing moves between the personal and the universal, offering not answers, but companionship for anyone learning to come home to themselves.
How It Works
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Please Note
Due to the digital nature of this product, we're unable to offer refunds or returns. Please review the description and chapter list carefully before purchasing, and feel free to reach out with any questions first — I'm happy to help you decide if this book is right for you.
Don't Stop Here!
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