Ninety-Nine Ways to Spiritual Awakening E-Book
On August 14, 2019, the New York State Child Victims Act went into effect. Any survivors of child abuse, without a statute of limitations, could now file a lawsuit against their perpetrator or the institution that the perpetrator represented or was a part of. New York State was following many other states that were now opening up the opportunity for victims to file lawsuits against the institutions that allowed for, and covered up the abuse, including the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society of Pennsylvania, the Watchtower Bible & Tract Society of New York, and the Christian Congregation of Jehovah’s Witnesses, Inc. or better known as the Jehovah’s Witnesses. I am one of their victims…
This is only part of the story I write. My story is also one of great loss, grief, and finding the light of spirituality through the darkness of most of my life. I write this to give hope to others who have gone through similar experiences, and also for my own healing.
We are each on our own life path. For most of my life, I didn’t know what that meant or what my purpose was here in this life. I grew up in a religion that taught me that the only way out of this life of pain and hurt was through surviving a god driven damnation of all people on the earth who were not part of that religion. When you learn something from infancy, even when you walk away from it, its ingrained in you. It takes great mental strength to break through the cognitive dissonance one experiences when freeing oneself from beliefs that no longer serves us. This is not only a mental pain, but one that is felt physically.
The double infinity symbol on the cover of this book is of the tattoo I have on my arm that represents the infinite life that continues on in my son and father who have passed, but are still with me, guiding me. I pray that in some way, this book may contribute to a healing process for those who may have experienced similar circumstances, or as is my life’s path, to help others.
The events in this book are all non-fiction and I have tried to create events, locales and conversations from my memories of them. In order to maintain their anonymity in some instances, I have changed the names of individuals.
This story of my grief and awakening, many have said, needed to be told. There are many parts from the beginning that will shed light on my current life. My only hope in writing this is that those who can relate to my story, will find healing from their own pain and grief, and awaken to a new way of living. One that doesn’t carry the pain and torment of the past.
I am not one for notoriety. I am introverted, in my younger years quite shy. I would even say I had a bit a social anxiety. However, I know that if my story helps even just one person on their life path, it will be worth it. This is the reason I write.
Rev. Marilyn Ridley
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