Neurospicy H*es: I Dissociated at the Family Reunion and Ended Up With Him Inside Me

Natalie:

I dissociate when there’s too much noise. Too many eyes. Too many people calling me different like I haven’t always known I was.

So when my brain broke at the family reunion, of course it was him who found me.

Tobias. Forty years older. The man who used to fuck me like I was his dirty little secret.

He’s the only thing that ever made my body feel like a home instead of a prison.

I told myself I was healed. I told myself I was better.

But when he touched me, I remembered that sometimes, love doesn’t feel like safety.

It feels like ownership.

Tobias:

She stimmed through the whole conversation and still came for me like she ain’t been gone seven years.

Natalie’s brain don’t move like everybody else’s, but her body always knew what it needed.

Me.

She hates chaos but keeps crawling back to mine.

And I let her. I hold her when she spirals. I fuck her when she dissociates. I love her when her own mind turns on her.

They say she’s too much. I say she ain’t enough until she’s on my face telling me I’m the only thing keeping her grounded.

That girl ain’t broken. She just needs someone who knows how to hold all her noise.

And I do.