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There is nothing I'm afraid to admit, that's why I've made two-three of these posts before because people like to see my name and side with the one story they get which is extremely unfair

D-XXING

Yes I've openly admitted to the situation with crybaby tons of times before but I have never ONCE d-xxed gutz or anyone close to her. That whole situation was always thrown back onto me because I was an easy target and the main "person" to actually dig up the info on her. By info I do not mean literal info, I mean the stuff she was lying about, selling empty unity packages, faking cancer, etc. I have NEVER d-xxed someone, unless someone has actual proof of me leaking someone's information, address, full name, put it in the blacklist because I've never seen it.

L3AKING

Y'all wouldn't know leaking if it hit you in the face I swear. I've mentioned TO HUNDREDS upon HUNDREDS of people, the only model I leaked was called Akari, it can be found on VRM, it is black and red and has japanese letters in the title of the model. Toxic is a model of mine that I MYSELF never leaked nor got leaked, to my knowledge,

Never admitted to leaking said model because it wasn't toxic, it was AKARI

ironic....

"My interaction with them"

• Honorable mentions; Y'all make it sound like I'm an animal to talk to LMAOOOO like I live in your walls or sum and I'ma come out at any given second and give you a heart attack. Y'all also make it sound like people from my own SERVER has had bad experiences with me. Out of the 400 people I've ever had within my server, it has 122 now because I "clean" it out, I've had ONE bad experience. I do not "threaten" my server members to bow down and kiss my toes to say nice things about me, I'm EXTREMELLY understanding in a lot of situations and I let people explain themselves without automatically jumping on the "you're going on my blacklist and naughty list grrrr, you shouldn't do that, actions have consequences" type shit

Under what beliefs, exactly? My RELIGION? Because I'm almost 99% positive that I've never used my religion as an escapegoat before EVER, not in any situations, not to anyone. I say I have BPD but I don't use my religion to "get away with things" or to "defend" certain/questionable actions lmao, y'all just say shit to say shit atp, another example of that is finding an email with akira in it and claiming it's mine LOL, it's not my email but props for trying to think it was

Do your research, please and thanks.

RESELLING AN FBX

Again, this model had no sales nor was I EDUCATED on the fact you can't take an fbx from a unity package to reedit (despite owning the bases with the OG) The things I used to "re-edit" or remake gutz noel model, I had already owned, bases included but I took that model down when it was brought to my attention. Y'all fr care sm about shit y'all turn a blind eye on. As for the descriptions on the models between me and gutz beef, were justified and I will not apologize for any of those messages on those models.

BLXXD CHANNEL

Notice how the channels description doesn't include "sxlf hxrm"? that's because the channel wasn't FOR sxlf hxrm and was for just PHOTOS of blood, nose bleeds, a scrap, you ACCIDENTALLLLLLLLLLLY cut yourself. The channel was for my OWN enjoyment and not for anyone else's. People weren't subjected to see the channel if they didn't want to, a simple "remove me from this channel" would have worked and it DID. I respect the people within my server to not agree with things I like.

Cancel me for that but you won't blacklist every model you see with bruises, scraps, cuts, scars, etc because great heavens, seeing a model with bruises might glorify abxse of some kind, makes me laugh I swear. It's also not my fault y'all get offended over seeing a drop of blood because you'd prefer to be vanilla... my fault, I should really apologize for that. Grow a stronger stomach, it's 2025 btw

By notify, you mean stalking, right...? Because I'm pretty sure you don't need to or shouldn't be needing people to "spy" on me or my behavior like I'm some armed civilian.... That convo was between two people, one creator has some models of theirs covered in bloody tattoos and is all things dark and scary but when someone like myself, has a blxxd f3tish, that's the silver lining?

• Honorable mentions; my server was 18+ and I didn't ID people, I didn't start IDing people until mid of last year but the amount of 18+ servers I'm in on my alt and NONE of them ever thought once to ID me or anyone else, is absurd. I can easily go into an 18+ channel and just click the "I verify" button or whatever it is. You wanna grill me, you might as well grill everyone else who has minors in their server who has access to an 18+ channel with no ID verification, and I can heavily name a handful or more servers just like that.

PLAYING VICTIM

I think some of y'all don't realize that behind creators, are actual people, people that deal with stuff OUTSIDE of just making avatars for customers. Yes, say that I don't deserve mental health days because to YOU that's justified and that "I don't deserve it" yea.... that's fine but it doesn't take away from the fact that I still suffer from a lot of shit, daily might I add. There is 2 sides to every story and you hate for me to tell mine.

PDF-PHILIA

Not the reason behind my blacklist because that would have to start with the first person mentioned above in d-xxing but the main reason as to why my BL got spread around.

Yes, I see it everyday. I made a dark humor joke and it got subjected to pdf philia but there's more to that than just that situation; I've seen quite a few people mention this or try using it against me, I had a minors "chest" as my discord banner. At the time when I HAD that photo as my banner, it wasn't until they refused to send ID and when that happened, I removed that banner and used someone else's with PROOF OF ID and both banners I had were slightly blurred so unless you SQUINTED, you wouldn't be able to make it what it was, aside from the "line" down the middle. Yes I am at fault for not IDing in the first place but from the communities I come from, people don't lie about their age, especially to fit in either. So yes I take the blame for that BUT I learned from my mistakes, clearly.

CONCLUSION

I've done a lot of bad things in my life, bad choices, bad decision making but as someone who plans on quitting avatar creation soon, y'all are the worst community I've ever been "apart" of, if you wish to call it that. I've been belittled down to nothing but a creator, a person who makes 3D models and I'm nothing more than that, a "creator" who isn't allowed to have hobbies/interests/"kinks" outside of creation. I've seen a lot of creators get treated the exact same way that I do and it's considered normal considering some creators "deserve" it. Everyone in this community has double standards because how do I get cancelled for saying "I like anorexic bodies" (WORST wording I ever could have used and I realize that now AND make my bodies "better") but 90% of vrc avatars look like they have no room for organs? Can organs not afford rent to live within some vrc body types? Say "it's an unrealistic game" but that doesn't excuse half of the egirl bodies looking thin and unhealthy either but y'all hate to hear that too, I guess?

I wish no ill-intent on anyone I've ever had beef with and this is directed to one person alone. I have not seen them post well within half a year and I hope it's because they got the help they needed and very much deserved. As for anyone else, mainly directed towards the people that were my friends but chose to switch up when I caught them doing things they weren't supposed to or people that were my friends and we just had a personal falling out but you STILL chose to switch up, I have nothing to say to any of you aside from the fact personal issues should stay personal and don't deserve an automatic switch up because you were just my friend to "kiss my a$$"

That's all I have to say. People will continue to share my blacklist, bring me up, or choose to not support me at all and to that I say, you have free will but I wish to have no part of being in drama, as I have stated a year ago already. What enjoyment y'all get out of lying on behalf on making YOU look better, I don't know because I don't do it. I tell my side because it deserves to be heard. There is a lot more on my blacklist but with what LONG ASS THREAD was sent to me, none of what I'm thinking of was on it.

• Honorable mention; Don't believe everything you read from screenshots or don't take someone's word for it. Even people on tiktok have a higher common sense and IQ than people believing everything they hear from the vrc community. I say jump, you jump. The whole entire community is a big game of simon says and it's nothing more than that. Where's the people blacklisting melanie martinez for being a supposed pdf? Or dream? What about the shane dawson incident from like 2015 of him fxcking his cat? Is it because it doesn't PERTAIN to your community? They're still SERIOUS and actual issues, rather than beefing over pixels. If y'all got paid to go after people and made this into an ACTUAL job and accusing people left and right, I'm sure you'd get paid 7.15 an hour because it is never that serious. BREAKING NEWS !! This creator was CAUGHT stealing textures and taking credit for them! Do you want that cookie served on a silver platter? Women don't have rights in 2025, put your negative energy into something worth while and not b!tching abt pixels online.