Some mornings you wake up calm, clear, and aligned. And some mornings you wake up…
ready to fight someone.
Today was the second one. No clear reason. Just immediate irritation.
Like my nervous system clocked in before I did and chose chaos.
I had yesterday’s conversation with my neighbor looping in my head — the one where he told me he didn’t shoot out the window of my BMW. Which would have been great if it was true. :)
Excitingly enough, my brain decided that was something we should revisit…repeatedly… like it was a Netflix series I didn’t consent to watching. So that was playing. All. Morning. Long.
On top of that, my body decided this week was a “we’re not functioning normally” trial of patience.
IVIG has this fun little rhythm where I feel decent some days… and then the following week I lose the ability to do basic things.
As in:
Holding my head up feels like a full-time job with no benefits and no time off.
So I woke up not just irritated. But sad. Frustrated. Heavy. Totally defeated.
And if I’m being honest?
Also resisting all of it.
Because I know better, right?
I know how to shift my energy.
I know how to regulate.
I know what “alignment” is supposed to feel like.
Which is exactly why my first instinct was…
✨ to either ignore it or fix it.
So I painted...
Light codes.
Very spiritual. Very me. Very aligned in theory.
Except my brain was still arguing with my neighbor the entire time.
So instead of feeling peaceful, I was just… painting while internally spiraling.
Not exactly the transcendent experience I was going for. 😅
And this is the part no one really talks about:
You can’t bypass what your body is asking you to feel.
You can try to out-think it.
Out-spiritual it.
Out-“high vibe” it.
Because if something is there — it’s there for a reason.
And it doesn’t leave just because you did something that should work.
Sometimes you don’t need to shift it yet.
Sometimes you need to feel it first.
Not analyze it.
Not fix it.
Not rush it out of your system.
Just… let it exist.
And I wasn’t doing that.
I was trying to skip the part where I felt angry.
Skip the part where I felt sad about my body.
Skip the part where I felt frustrated and limited.
I wanted to get back to “aligned” as fast as possible.
But alignment doesn’t come from avoidance.
It comes from honesty.
It comes from letting your body complete what it started.
✨
At some point, my blood sugar spiked. (It's been a day, lol)...
Which meant I didn’t get to sit there and be spiritually irritated anymore.
I had to move.
So I got on the trampoline.
Not gracefully.
Not intentionally.
Not because I felt inspired.
But because I had to.
And within minutes…Everything shifted.
Not in a dramatic, angelic, light-filled way.
Just… enough.
Enough that I could breathe again. Enough that the edge softened.
Enough that I didn’t feel trapped in it anymore.
And here’s what I realized after:
It wasn’t just the movement.
It was that somewhere in the middle of all of it — the anger, the sadness, the frustration —
I had finally let myself feel it.
Without making it mean something about me.
Without turning it into a problem.
The movement didn’t suppress it.
It helped it move through.
✨
Here’s the truth I keep relearning:
You can’t always think your way out of a state your body is in.
And you can’t heal what you’re unwilling to feel.
Alignment isn’t about always feeling good.
It’s about knowing what to do when you don’t.
Sometimes that’s stillness.
Sometimes that’s rest.
Sometimes that’s crying for no clear reason or any specific reason.
And sometimes… It’s bouncing on a trampoline while mildly annoyed about it.
😅
The version of me from years ago would’ve stayed in it all day.
Overthinking. Overprocessing. Trying to figure out why I felt the way I did.
The version of me now knows:
Sometimes the fastest way back isn’t over it.
It’s through it.
💫 A Simple Reset (That Doesn’t Bypass You)
If you wake up off — angry, heavy, frustrated, sad — try this:
1️⃣ Let yourself feel it first
Before you try to shift anything, pause.
What are you actually feeling?
Where is it in your body?
Let it exist without rushing it away.
2️⃣ Stop trying to “fix” your emotions
You’re not broken.
You’re having a human response.
That doesn’t need to be solved — it needs to be processed.
3️⃣ Then move your body (gently)
Walk. Stretch. Shake. Bounce.
Let the feeling move through you instead of staying stuck.
4️⃣ Lower the bar
You don’t need to feel amazing.
You just need to feel a little better than you did 10 minutes ago.
5️⃣ Let that be enough
You don’t need a breakthrough.
You need a reset.
💛 Final Note
Some days, your highest self looks like meditation. And some days, your highest self looks like
feeling everything you didn’t want to feel and then doing the smallest thing to support yourself anyway.
Both count.
More than you think.