All my life, I always thought there was something more that God wanted me to do. However, growing up, I really didn't like being the centre of attention; I was afraid to speak out.
Throughout my twenties and early thirties, I followed the path I thought was the right thing to do; it was the path expected of me. I got a stable job, was saving for a house, etc. But something didn't feel right; I thought I was missing something. Even though I was doing all the things expected of a good Christian woman, I was meant to do. I didn't feel like I was flourishing; I was going through the motions of life.
Just over ten years ago, I was taking our Church youth to a festival, and we were singing a song about surrender, when I felt God say, "Don't sing these words unless you mean it, and I found myself unable to sing the song, even though I really wanted to. I felt that God wanted me to give up everything, and I was scared. I was more afraid of what other people would think about me.
I really wrestled with this for around 6 months, spoke to some wise friends, and after that time, I knew what I had to do. I had to quit my nice, secure full-time job without knowing what was next.
What followed was a rollercoaster of a journey: discovering my identity as a daughter of God, learning what it means to live a life of surrender, and deepening my understanding of God's goodness and faithfulness. There have been more downs than ups along the way, but it has been the best decision that I have ever made.
Along the way, I have discovered that God has given me a passion for walking alongside people and helping them as they follow God's plan for their lives. I enjoy communicating through spoken and written words, and through music, about faith and who God is. I love seeing people flourish in their identity as children of God.