Hello again, beautiful souls...
Here's the next segment of my Sunday evening coaching journey update. Last week, I shared the start of this journey of growth with you, but what I didn’t talk about was just how hard it was to actually take the plunge.
Deciding to further my coaching skills wasn’t one of those instant, lightning-bolt moments where I just 'knew' what I had to do. It was more of a slow, persistent nudge… one that I ignored for a while because, let’s be honest, stepping up and committing to something at a deeper level can feel terrifying.
I was already coaching clients, supporting them through their growth, and doing the work that truly lights me up, whether through Reiki, teaching, or hosting workshop and retreats. But I wanted more. I wanted to develop my skills, refine my approach, and become truly impactful in the work I do.
And that’s where the fear crept in.
Suddenly, my brain had a lot to say.
"Can I really justify spending this much money on myself?"
"Will I actually have the time to do this properly?"
"What if I’m just not good enough?
And let’s not forget the classic… "Who do you think you are?"
Honestly, if I had a pound for every time that last thought popped into my head, I could’ve paid for the course twice over.
The financial commitment was one of the biggest hurdles. I don’t think I realised how much guilt I had around spending money on my own development until I was faced with actually doing it.
It’s strange, isn’t it? We don’t question spending money on our homes, cars, holidays, or even courses that benefit our employers. But when it comes to investing in something that’s just for us, suddenly we hesitate.
I had all the usual thoughts… "Should I wait"? 
"Should I spend this on something more ‘practical"? 
"Is this selfish"?
But then I asked myself, 
"What’s the cost of NOT doing this"?
If I didn’t invest in myself, I wouldn’t grow in the way I knew I could. I wouldn’t be able to take my coaching to the next level and make the kind of impact I truly wanted.
That’s when I knew… I had to back myself.
The next challenge was the time commitment. Life already felt full-on, so how was I supposed to fit in training, practice sessions, and all the other requirements?
I won’t lie, I had visions of myself drowning under a pile of coursework while everything else in my life fell apart around me.
But here’s what I’ve realised… we don’t FIND time, we MAKE time.
It’s never about having endless free hours just waiting to be filled. It’s about choosing what matters and making space for it. It’s about letting go of the things that drain you and prioritising what actually moves you forward. So yes, I’ve had to reshuffle things, set boundaries, and be more intentional with my time, but already I can see how worthwhile it this is.
And then, of course, there was the self doubt. That little voice that loves to pop up at the worst moments and whisper, "What if you’re just not cut out for this?"
I’d love to say I’ve silenced it completely, but the truth is, it still shows up. The difference now is that I don’t let it make my decisions for me.
Every single coach, mentor, or leader I look up to has been exactly where I am now. Nobody starts as an expert. The only way to become great at something is to actually do it.
So I remind myself daily… growth happens outside of our comfort zone. The only way to get better is to start. I belong in this space. And every time I show up, learn something new, or get positive feedback, I prove to myself that I can do this.
Now that I’m deep into this journey, I can confidently say it was worth it.
Was I nervous? Yes. Did I have doubts? Absolutely. But if I had let fear make the decision for me, I wouldn’t be here, growing, learning, and developing skills that will allow me to make an even bigger impact in the work I love.
Here’s to trusting ourselves, backing ourselves, and embracing the journey ahead.
Jayne
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