She was sneaking around for some years, calling me quietly until I took notice of her. My heart was yearning for her until I could no longer ignore it, so I turned to the source of life, the source of all what is, and said Yes to her calling, with my shy voice whispering: “I am ready to get to know the passion”. It was not this kind of saying Yes when you still mean No. It was a huge Yes, a deep courageous commitment to life.
I felt restless as I felt her force approaching me.
I was scared for my life, but the curiosity and courage kept my door open for her, as if they would be guiding my heart.
The passion did not knock on my door; she stormed into my life with her eminent presence, her wild nature longing for expression through movement, dance, song, colors, sensual exploration…
Once I invited her and let her in, she took me with all her force, burning all obstacles away as she made her way through life.
She was unstoppable and fierce, her bonfire burning my old life away, and everything that I have built was dissolving to ashes. She was finding her expression through my body and facing the old conditioning, I realized how my little world was not built for her.
When I tried to control her and get hold on her, she would painfully burn my hands.
When I tried to suppress her in my body, she would suck the iron of my blood and fooled my mind with fog.
When I tried to negotiate with her asking to become gentler with me, she just had a good laugh and sent me a little treat so I could take another step with her… until I gave up and surrendered fully.
Every time I faced the dead end, she brought up new synchronicities into my life, showing me other ways, other paths.
And so I kept on walking, leaving the people and places behind, and only those stayed by my side who felt her strength in my heart.
As I fully surrendered to her, I trusted her more and more, and followed her lead in devotion and in
witnessing of my old life falling apart in pieces. She stayed with me until she finished her work and my new life emerged out of what appeared to be a real chaos. She completely took over and showed herself in full beauty, emergence, and expanding my energy into the unknown dimensions.
If you have a longing for more and want to invite passion into your life, be aware that once she enters, she takes away the old, dismantling and sweeping away what you have built, until you stop fighting her and surrender.
It is not the path of everyone.
It is the path of both, the bravest, and the most vulnerable parts of yourself that want to be seen and heard in order to come home into your whole self, so you can express them in all your beauty and love, gain the wisdom of your heart, and actively contribute to the cycles of life.
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