Sometimes you just have to lay before the altar…

Sometimes you just have to lay before the altar…

I used to think that just because I received my heavenly language and God spoke to me regularly that I didn’t need to do the things I once did to get to that point. I used to think that since I was the church that I didn’t need to do the things I once did to get to that point. I used to think that because I received revelation knowledge, a renewed mind and became free that I didn’t need to do all the things I once did to get to that point. 

So I stopped. 

God never stopped speaking. The lessons never stopped coming. I didn’t lose my gifts or my mind or my freedom but a lot of things did change. I would get to a hard place, cry out and lay before God to listen a little deeper. In it I would receive scriptures and messages. I would begin in obedience and end in distractions. 

Spiritual practices are important to keep you busy, focused and disciplined so that when distractions come you are able to move right along without becoming entangled. Daily prayer(multiple times a day), studying, meditating, fasting(when needed), affirmations and minding your thoughts, taking care of your temple, being mindful of how you treat others…it’s truly a lifestyle, not just an emergency consultation. 

The grace on my life and the reward that comes from this should be playing on repeat. Now I understand why Jesus was so focused. Everytime something came to distract, he repeated his purpose and source of his power. I believe it was how he calmed his mind and wrestled his flesh. A noble example. 

I’ve tried many times to be serious about my own purpose. Having plans, beginning them and ending them. Saying what I’m going to do and never getting to the end. The few things I have focused on and finished didn’t get the traction I wanted so my discouragement became a new distraction. 

God said that my self pity was a poor excuse and that I needed to build my confidence up. That I needed to know my why was never about me and if I could reach 1 then I had succeeded. That consistency and focus is key. 

So here I am, lying at the altar. Praising God, forgiving myself, asking for strength as I begin again.