Valentines this week, I have been waking up full of the joys of Spring, which makes no sense as my life is a bit of a train wreck. Yesterday I discovered a park with crocuses planted in the grass, it was so beautiful I hope others appreciate it. I also freshened up three of the hanging baskets removing the pansies that had black soot mould caused by usually dickhead aphids. I don't hate many things, because I don't like things to have that much power over me, but I hate plant pests. I don't use pesticides on any of our plants so I often end up losing plants if I give up the battle. My take on pesticides is that they are just bad and should not be used, I do understand why they have to though as they have to produce a lot of food for the masses who do not appreciate it in the slightest. Sometimes I get very sad when I realise how ungrateful the majority of society are, we have been given a wonderful life on the most beautiful planet. I would love to visit more of the planet I have been trapped in my town now for about five months as my car is unreliable and I no longer have breakdown cover so I can't risk travelling too far.
I'm going to London soon though, I love London. Need to book my tickets, pooping myself as something big is happening while I'm there, which I am going to keep quiet about because there are a lot of evil people who spoil things for others. When you have a light that shines bright you irritate a lot of people I used to care that people didn't like me now I know that it is their problem because I love me!
Oh I forgot I discovered watercolour painting I have included the third one that I did and I have drawn the cover to my first book. After painting straight off for the first few pieces I thought that maybe I could draw first and then make it pop with paint. I would love to have a larger selection of paints as I think I only have 12 colours so they end up quite messy with the colour mixes . I have applied to become a member of the society that provides botanical art, hopefully they will accept me. The book by the way will be the first of many as I already have my second one started both are completely different genres. The first one is a psychological romance and the second is a historical horror, my brain has always gone ten million miles an hour and now I have reading, writing, drawing, painting and planting that slows it right down. I'm feeling very blessed, gifted and in love with being alive once again. I have done do much inner work on myself, I have dealt with all of my past trauma and I feel so proud that I only allowed the world and the agent smiths to destroy my soul for a short while and that I didn't just pop a pill to mask it like so many do. I don't blame them for taking the pills its far easier than having a dark night of the soul as it really is no fun. Anyway I hope that your Valentines week is a banger and you possibly get banged lol also happy pancake day!
I just remembered I'm volunteering on Valentines day this week at the Church.