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How I Stopped Living in the Energy of Lack
It didn’t happen in a big, cinematic moment. There was no breakthrough journal session or perfectly timed quote that changed my life.
It happened quietly — on an ordinary afternoon — when I realized I was exhausted from chasing something I already had.
I was sitting in front of my laptop, staring at numbers that refused to move. Stripe. Gumroad. Analytics.
Different platforms, same story.
My income had flatlined, and my nervous system was fried.
So I did what I’d been taught to do.
I pushed harder.
Reworked my offer. Redesigned my funnel. Started another 30-day plan to “fix” it all.
But the harder I pushed, the heavier everything felt. The more I tried to control the outcome, the more I felt disconnected from my work — and myself.
That’s when it hit me: I wasn’t out of alignment with strategy.
I was out of alignment with safety.
When Your Nervous System Believes Lack Is Safer
No one teaches us how much our body remembers.
Mine remembered everything — the nights my parents whispered about bills, the fear that came with wanting too much, the unspoken rule that “enough” meant survival, not joy.
So when I started earning more, my nervous system panicked.
It wasn’t used to safety that wasn’t tied to struggle.
It was comfortable in chaos.
That’s why every time things began to flow, I’d somehow sabotage it — unconsciously creating situations that brought me right back to scarcity.
I thought I was chasing growth.
But really, I was chasing safety — in all the wrong ways.
Scarcity Is a Familiar Kind of Comfort
It’s wild how something painful can still feel safe.
- You can crave expansion while your body resists it.
- You can want more money, but panic when it actually arrives.
- You can preach abundance, but secretly believe ease is dangerous.
That’s the paradox of lack. It’s not logical — it’s learned.
And for many women, it’s inherited.
We watched generations of women survive by overworking, by self-sacrificing, by holding everything together without complaint.
Somewhere deep down, our nervous systems learned: to receive is risky.
So we kept earning love, safety, and worthiness through effort.
And we mistook exhaustion for proof of value.
The Real Work Wasn’t Making More Money — It Was Feeling Safe Having It
When I finally slowed down, I noticed how addicted I’d become to fixing things.
There was always another offer to tweak, another launch to perfect.
But what I really needed was to learn how to be — without proving, without performing.
That’s when my healing began.
Not through new affirmations or morning rituals.
But through nervous system regulation — teaching my body that stillness was safe.
Some days that meant breathing through discomfort instead of numbing it with productivity.
Other days it meant pausing before reacting to the fear of “not enough.”
Over time, my body started to trust that ease wouldn’t collapse my world.
And once that trust was rebuilt, everything changed.
My creativity returned. My launches felt lighter.
Money started to flow — not because I was forcing it, but because I’d stopped gripping so tightly.
The New Story I Chose
I began reprogramming my inner dialogue.
When scarcity thoughts appeared — What if it runs out? What if no one buys? — I stopped fighting them.
Instead, I’d say:
Thank you for protecting me. But I’m safe now.
It sounds simple, but that shift was everything.
Because the moment you stop making fear the enemy, it loses its grip.
My new story became one of sufficiency.
I started celebrating what was here — the clients I already had, the ideas flowing through me, the life I was creating.
And from that grounded place, I began attracting more without chasing it.
That’s the thing about sufficiency: it expands quietly.
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Where Are You Still Choosing Lack?
Pause for a second.
- Notice where your body tenses when you think about money, success, or growth.
- That tension isn’t wrong. It’s just a signal.
- A reminder that there’s a part of you still equating struggle with safety.
- Maybe it shows up when you discount your work because you’re afraid no one will pay full price.
- Maybe it’s the guilt you feel when you rest.
- Maybe it’s the panic that follows every good month — the whisper that says, what if it disappears?
Whatever form it takes, recognize it for what it is: an outdated safety pattern.
And you can choose again.
Enough Is an Energy, Not a Number
The more I rooted myself in sufficiency, the more life reflected it back.
Clients began to appear through intuition instead of strategy.
Money came through unexpected channels.
But the real change wasn’t external — it was energetic.
Because I finally understood:
Money doesn’t respond to pressure.
It responds to peace.
When you stop chasing and start embodying enoughness, you shift the field around you.
Your frequency changes.
You stop grasping for what’s next and start magnetizing from where you already are.
That’s the alchemy.
The Invitation
If you’ve been stuck in a cycle of “almost there,” I want you to know this:
You’re not broken. You’re just wired for safety.
And safety can be rewired.
Ease can be learned.
Receiving can become your new normal.
When you start creating from sufficiency instead of scarcity, your energy becomes irresistible.
Your work expands. Your results stabilize. Your joy returns.
You don’t have to chase abundance anymore.
You just have to remember you were never separate from it.
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