Sick warrior

This is my real story of my life with drugs, schizophrenia and sports.

Here is little from ebook:

Chapter 7: The Moment of Truth

In my life, there were many moments when I told myself that I didn’t want to take drugs anymore. It wasn’t that I had never thought about it. On the contrary — there were many times when I made that decision.

But deciding is one thing. Sticking to that decision is another.

It wasn’t easy. My old group of friends kept pulling me back. The environment I was used to kept me trapped in a circle that was hard to step out of. Even though deep inside I felt that I didn’t want to live like that, reality was often stronger.

Still, somewhere deep inside, I knew one thing.

I didn’t want this kind of life.

At the same time, I began to realize another truth — I couldn’t do it alone. I needed help. And most importantly, I needed a change of environment, a change of direction, a change of life.

The real turning point came at the end of 2023.

Once again, I was hospitalized in a psychiatric ward. But this time, there was also a final diagnosis: schizophrenia of an unspecified type. When a person hears words like that, it is not easy to accept. It is a moment when you have to admit that some things in life are more serious than you were willing to admit before.

During that period, my family and I had many conversations. And that was when an important decision was made.

We agreed that it would be good for me to leave my hometown for some time. It didn’t have to be forever. But I needed a new beginning, a new environment, and a place where I could focus on myself.

My family helped arrange a place for me in a rehabilitation facility.

When it was time for me to go there, I naturally had my doubts. I wondered what it would be like. What kind of people would be there. Whether I would manage it. Whether it would help at all.

A new environment is always a step into the unknown.

Despite that, I decided to give it a chance.

Today I know that it was one of the best decisions of my life.

It was the moment when I fully admitted to myself that change had to start within me. And that sometimes the greatest strength a person can show is the ability to accept help.

That was where my real journey out of the darkness truly began. 💭💪