Down book 2 of addiction series.
Down is the second installment of a three part series about addiction and abuse. It's the point that every user gets when he realizes his an addict. That it's an easy act but becomes a life long inculcation. That one come to the reality that he or she has the habit and now decides to be conferred and confirm in the detracted and demonization of substance, use, need and failure to either find or lose his control on life. Read: "Down".
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Down.
A second installment of addiction.
By
Copyright 2023 Danny E. Allen LLC
KDP publishing edition
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The second installment of "High" the original concept book about use, abuse and addiction. That the spirit and inturning ingenuity of those whom become inhibited and all the drama and interplay seen, sorted and subject in it. That it's a war of failure, fault and fostered fruition of those that are its specific attempters of course and calling.
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One's focuses and engagements in a life, are both decided and set-by our own-rules and realities... We advantage and are specific, by instances and ideas. In the “average-life”, we-are prototypical-specific, authentic and implemented; as exact off-shoots of deeds, fears and a loneliness. As it appears to us, on our own grand-scale. As schemes and stand-outs each comes to realize, recognize and ramify; with being decided and deepened; as a “density”. We all take-up steps whether as fears or loneliness; we intend and decided-by fate, and as a pre-fabrication. Life is just as a resign, rule or resolve; that it's an instance and energy, valued and as a fulcrum-entered into; as an “incentive” and as an “endeavor”...
But this is the individuals, scales and scopes that-before all this, we weigh and make a virtue upon as a “pulsating”-pedestal. Faiths however seen, exceeds and escapes-affirm and controlled-fundamental. It's a habitual-influx of times, terms and testaments. But once used, becomes a living-dimension-of life. The “user” can only be atoned to the derivative and directive, of that most serious-addiction... Drugs in the self-illicit; are a largess all their own. That the “user”,can only be atoned; to the derivative and directive of that most serious-addiction. Drugs, in their illicit area; largess-all their own. ”Sate” and conflicts, diminishes and detracts; as long as one's existence...
Uses, and all it's confirmations-assail and astound; by a depravity, and in as a diffidence... ...All-other autonomy, becomes as a quandary as of that “fate”. There is a devious-defiling, “pantheon”; ever-constant, being installed and impulsed; by everyone-entailing, and exacted... There was a destined, and distilling; as an ordinate and intricate as aspects-incidental and employ. Motive, identity and implicit, are as a-distinctive and in a discordant. We are by affects, and are implicated-by intents, interests and ideas. Which are originated and obligated, in-congeal and constitution. In this we are a constant-tolling of the worst and wicked, guider-ship of our “proclivity”-of the otherwise-competent. That the inert, utter-energies of untoward-awareness and obligations; feted and furrowed-deep, within.
The “purpose” ensues and gradates; in a high-order of use. Where wars, will and worship are-constant. Conjugates and conflagrations, in our true-trials and testaments of authenticity; as ideas and obligations. Being”down”, self-implicated by the ideas and vestments of causes, caustic and conquests-by energies of mental mode and manifest; are miter of a missions, first unseen and ill-thought of, then allotted by an inciting. A watching of a “wick”, burns by boldness-bored and brevity-of a loneliness and fear. That we are affected-creatures instrumental alluding; by allots commanded and concurred; by acclimates and accolades, disturbed and redeeming... That it is not undone as an insanity, but one really by a distortion, and denial. And as a human-rises and falls by act and attainment, who acquiesce to despair, disposal and deferring. A selfish-”despot” of deeds and defiant; hidden and riding the trial of “wary” and unwavering-preclusion. One's own mind-private and pivotal-fails, with a gaining, as a disunity and impart. A sequel-less reputation, owned and powered; as a despondency; seen, subjugate and subjection. Looking or in anointing of “finding” yet falsely, trained as-temptations.
...A both, composing and commandment-with it, in a search and as a sincerity of fate and forfeiture. In-turned within, within the fix and admix-processed and pluralized; with its symptomatic and simplistic-”ideals and connotes-of originality. A ever-seemly, relevance carried-on as a “down”-of one's weighing, and exclusion. Ideas-eventuality, fail and receded-into the forgotten. Illicit use and abuse, is a well-calculated-diffused, “confusion”... One of a self-feeling. As fortune, misfortune, depth; as well “debt” and development. A world-“finite”, confined, and defining. A recessive and residing-careful-confounding. A “universe” of contexts, and collusions. In a registered-”cataclysm” upon-one and as disregard upon all-else...
As in so many enigmatic-variables and as imputing-of as “ideas”, motivations and aspirations-subsides into what are-in so doing are as a relevance, and as an ordinal. Which are the major-mechanisms, fueled and as a fabrication. Which are sat and placed-upon the extension-in-roads of prefixes, and prominence. A journey and “personal-story” of inherent, belying and bestowal. It's in the simplest-”terms”, but most enduring as a basing-aversion and inner-story. It is a-point of preeminence and persevering, that induces as adapts. ...You too as a “greatness”, gradating and gravity. Of an espousal and as in-specific, in so learning, fording, favor and festooned-fixed; and facilitated by lost, legitimacy and failing. A universe of abating-abreast, and belief. Aspiring and spiriting-away, of as an affair and avail... Of principle and pretext-fair, fording and forbade-in the theater of “one”. An instigation-of as fault, fear and loneliness; deeded and eventual-made, deformed... That it's a downhill-climb of being worn, worked and as a judgment. A durable-downfall in people, places and times... ...Of stint and schemes of as a foster, frustration and as a defamation.
A “stead”, as an obstruction, destruction and dysfunction-verged; divorced and deformed. ...A vintage and versification, finalized and failed; as litany, delusion and deactivation; in the lode and lessons in a lament, loathing and delusion. Where fate and fortune, leads to one's instigation, automation and deluding. A legacy of longings, lies and eventual lacking-to vindicate-limitations; unlocked and laboriously, declines. Of the outcomes-of that see fates, figuring and transmutations-allowed, and alone. Living-by baring and embrace-to what could, was and will-be. The mind and body, are made subjugate and declined-affirmed by idea, instance and as an integral. The ways and values-of years lived, are divulged and as a defunct-in as a definitive. Where we are regional and radical, relative, diversionary and ever-remit.
A specter and vivid, as a faction of the minute is rescinded, resign and construct-of; is grasped and gravitational-in remuneration, radical and related-by terms, texts and designs. An imposition, as a reproach phased and instigated. The afford of the mind, self-forging of one's innate-magnitude's specifics, especial-conciliation and consequences all lived as versatility and vehemence, in all the addict-can use. That a wonder and worsening warrant vilified and converses into deviation and defiance of is is inventive and inclusion. That time, tenses and terminal ways whiddles into the ever-deferring of mind. Where ones living concurring is the convincing, correlation and formality are utter and instant involvement and convention.
...As insensitive-parables over-shadowed, secured and satisfied; as an indefinite-life that once succumbed to this idle-substance; now, is forged and forced, one's imminent life-style; its now-balanced years bordered and braving, as a delineate-life... That cause and according are conflicted, and inferred-with a deep-division of impact, and implicit... In the course and calculation-proceeded, and resounded; to a comport, cause and character; considerate and confining... A special fuel and fluidity, are worked-in and waned-in; as a withheld, winding and working... So many people within, and by as in a wayward are utterly, washed and as a ribald... Themes and semantics-of warded-to a resided-wit, are as correspondent and complying. Amazing and devastating-factual, firmament and as a forceful-fabrication; begins seamless with an insidious and as an established-instilling.
That a deficit-crisis and people's lives and intricacies are filled, and dis-fortunate; is ever in-turned and engaged by intensive and implication; entrenching of apprise and envelope; as an accessed assimilation-often formative and acclimates, context and calling. Being a user, an abuser of incurring and impacted as intent, and essence; an always, oriented and ordered; as surmised and insinuated in as defiling and definite. That proclivity and inspiration-on denotes and inspires people, and propriety... Ideas ad invention, times and entails; are as a proportion and proximal. A presiding and previous-discourse, are defining and femoral-to instilling, and institution. It's a scheme and scale, set as subversion of sensation and sublimation; of intricate and consigning-of encounter, in-capacity and common-complement.