MA'AM, DISCIPLINE IS... (Pre-order - releases Dec 1st)

⚠️ PLEASE NOTE: This is a pre-order. You will receive a temporary receipt file today, and the full digital book will be delivered to your email on [Dec. 1st 2026].

After mistakenly joining the United States Marine Corps, I quickly realized that the fun little benefit tags I chose were about to become way more real than I bargained for. I joined for adventure, travel, and challenge—anything to get the heck out of my town! Instead, I found myself writing a five-page letter to the Pentagon after receiving a big red "PDQ" (permanently disqualified) stamp, begging and pleading with total strangers to let me serve my country.

"Please, oh please let me in so you can stomp on me and change my identity!" Said no one. Ever. Except, of course, me.

I endured life as a wannabe poolee for the second half of 2010 while waiting for my PDQ to be lifted. It finally was in early January 2011—just in time for me to be shipped off to Parris Island a week later. As a woman in the Marines at that time, I was part of the 1%. I don’t know if that makes me special or a special kind of stupid. Whichever way I look at it, it was a worthwhile journey that ultimately forced me to face the absolute monster that rebellion can be. I can say with so much joy that when I finally understood true discipline—that is, godly discipline—I was able to be obedient to the correct Leader over my life.

This memoir is a glimpse into what the Marine Corps taught me and how God refined those lessons and corrected all the lies. Each chapter begins exactly where a Marine's journey does: with a formative definition to scream out on command, "Ma'am, discipline is!"



I hope you laugh along with me. I hope you see yourself in my story and begin to heal in all the places you still long to be free. I hope you're able to sense the moments I cried a hundred vials' worth of tears. Mostly, I hope you see God's excellent love and His desire for everyone to come home.

An ode to the Fourth Recruit Training Battalion—the end of an era. Here’s hope for generations to come who will walk in their own callings with discernment, discipline, and dominion. Completely free of fear, abiding in grace and unity.

Semper Fi.