From Martha to Mary, My Spiritual Awakening

Have you ever had questions and was told not to question God and/or your leader? Have you desired to know the deep hidden mysteries that are spoken of in the scriptures? Have you been in church all your life and sat and thought to yourself there has to be more than this? This can’t be the abundant life that Jesus came to give us? This surely isn't what Jesus came to teach us about God? The “this” can’t be running around the church shouting, praise breaks, speaking in tongues while silently leading a defeated life? Well, I did. I longed to know God on a deeper level....