Losing myself, loving them.

I didn't lose myself all at once.

It happened in the small moments, the missed calls

I never returned, the hobbies I quietly let go of,

the nights I sat in the car after everyone was finally asleep,

just to remember what silence felt like.

Losing Myself, Loving Them is the book I never planned to write.

It's not a guide, and it's not a list of tips.

It's the honest, unfiltered truth about what it really feels like to raise

your children alone, the 3am worry, the guilt that never fully leaves,

the mornings that fall apart before school even starts,

and the moments of pure, fierce love that make it all make sense anyway.

Inside, you'll find:

The reality of solo SEN parenting, the parts we don't post

The mornings we don't talk about, EBSA, school pressure,

and the particular grief of watching your child struggle to walk through a door

What happens when the mask drops at home, and why that's not a reflection of your parenting.

The constant, quiet battle of asking "am I doing enough?"

The slow loss of identity that comes with being "just mum" for so long

The small wins that carry you through the hardest days

A reminder, for the mum reading this at midnight, needing someone to say it back to her,

that you are not alone, and you are not failing

This book won't fix everything. But it might make you feel a little less alone in it.

If you've ever wondered whether you're good enough, whether you're doing enough,

or where the rest of you went, this one's for you.

Lots of loves

Hels 💜

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