Four Obscure Sorrows

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Programme Note

The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows is a collection of new words created by John Koenig. These words ‘poetically [define] emotions that we all feel but don’t have the words to express.’ The four miniature movements of this piece each reflect an entry in the dictionary:

keyframe

n. a moment that seemed innocuous at the time but ended up marking a diversion into a strange new era of your life—set in motion not by a series of jolting epiphanies but by tiny imperceptible differences between one ordinary day and the next, until entire years of your memory can be compressed into a handful of indelible images—which prevents you from rewinding the past, but allows you to move forward without endless buffering.

agnosthesia

n. the state of not knowing how you really feel about something, which forces you to sift through clues hidden in your behaviour, as if you were some other person—noticing a twist of acid in your voice, an obscene amount of effort put into something trifling, or an inexplicable weight on your shoulders that makes it difficult to get out of bed.

vellichor

n. the strange wistfulness of used bookstores, which are somehow infused with the passage of time—filled with thousands of old books you’ll never have time to read, each of which is itself locked in its own era, bound and dated and papered over like an old room the author abandoned years ago, a hidden annex littered with thoughts left just as they were on the day they were captured.

etterath

n. the feeling of emptiness after a long and arduous process is finally complete—having finished school, recovered from surgery, or gone home at the end of your wedding—which leaves you relieved that it’s over but missing the stress that organized your life into a mission.

All definitions come from The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows Website