Hardcover with Full Color Photos - A Road Trip with God: 11,800 Miles from Hoping to Die to Daring to Live

This is not a religious book.

It is a raw and intimate memoir about childhood sexual abuse, suicidal ideation, sexuality, shame, embodiment, and the radical possibility of becoming safe in your own body and in the world.

After decades of living with a mystery she could not name, Christie Del Vesco discovers the childhood trauma beneath a lifetime of fear, disconnection, and suicidal ideation. 

Then she gets in her car and drives 11,800 miles to simply photograph America.

Yet along the way, her body becomes a map. Sensations, reactions, fears, and moments of unexpected pleasure become clues leading her toward memories, sexuality, spirituality, and the parts of herself she had abandoned.

What she discovers is not a formula for healing, but a path toward presence, safety, and freedom—and tangible practices she can share with others without asking them to take the journey she took.

You don't have to believe in God. You don't have to take a road trip. You don't have to believe what Christie believes.

You only have to be willing to wonder:

What if the life you've been handed is not the only life available to you?

What if your body is not betraying you, but showing you the way?