I Don't Look Like Me
Verse 1
I wake up wearin’ yesterday’s skin
Like it still fits if I pretend
My name feels borrowed on my tongue
Like I’m speakin’ for someone else again
The mirror’s got a stranger’s face
Eyes I don’t know, lines I didn’t earn
I keep waitin’ for myself to walk back in
But the lights are on and no one turns
Pre-Chorus
They say you heal in pieces
But mine fell through the floor
Now every step I take feels like
I’m standin’ on before
Chorus
I’m so broke I don’t know who I was
I don’t recognize the way I love
I used to burn, now I just ache
Like a fire that forgot its name
I talk like I’m fine, but I don’t sound like me
I breathe, but it’s just muscle memory
Grief moved in and rearranged my bones
I don’t look like me since you’ve been gone
Verse 2
I keep your ghost in my back pocket
Like spare change I can’t spend
Every “how are you?” feels loaded
So I lie and say “I’m gettin’ there” again
My heart’s a house with busted doors
Wind howlin’ through every room
I trip over the life I had planned
Like furniture I never moved
Pre-Chorus
Time keeps marchin’ forward
Like it didn’t hear the news
That my whole damn world collapsed
And forgot to tell my shoes
Chorus
I’m so broke I don’t know who I was
I don’t recognize the way I love
I used to dream, now I just wait
Like a clock with nothin’ left to say
I smile for show, but it don’t feel true
It’s a language I forgot how to use
Grief moved in and stole my home
I don’t look like me since you’ve been gone
Bridge
If you saw me now, you wouldnt see
the me I was before the fall
I’m stitched together with “I’m okay”
And holdin’ on with frayin’ thread and calls
They say I’m strong, but strength feels thin
Like ice that’s crackin’ underneath
I’m still here, yeah, I exist
But I don’t look like me
Chorus (Soft then build)
I’m so broke I don’t know who I am
I’m learnin’ this body like borrowed land
I talk to the sky like it owes me truth
Like it might still send me back to you
I’m alive, but I’m not the same
I answer to a different name
Grief carved out a hollowed soul
I don’t look like me, and I don’t know if I ever will
Outro
Maybe one day I’ll recognize my eyes
Maybe I’ll stop flinchin’ at my name
But tonight I’ll sit with the mess I’ve become
And let grief say it changed me