DID I FIGHT A JINNI OR AN ANGEL?

From a reservist who was there.**

I was not a soldier when October 7th began. I was a man with a boring job, a noisy coffee maker, and a girlfriend who left hairpins on the bathroom sink.

Then my phone screamed.

This is my notebook. Not a polished history. Not a political manifesto. Just what I saw, what I did, and what I cannot forget.

**Inside you will find:**

- What leaders told us before battle — including the order to kill *any creature belonging to the Palestinians*

- Why we called our tank *the Bride of Israel* — and why the Americans wanted to copy it

- The American Jew (David) who sold his car to fight for a garden — and never came home

- The old soldier from 2014 who tried to warn us — and whom we mocked

- The moment a dying fighter whispered the *shahada*

- A child's drawing of a smiling sun on a destroyed schoolroom wall

- The question that follows me into every room: *Did I fight a Jinni or an Angel?*

**This book will not tell you who is right or wrong.** It will tell you what it feels like to climb into a beautiful machine, sing songs, and then come home unable to sleep because you keep seeing a woman fall.

**Who is this for?**

- Readers of war memoirs (*The Seventh Day, Matterhorn, Catch-22*)

- Anyone interested in moral injury, PTSD, and the psychology of soldiers

- People on any side of the Israeli-Palestinian conflict who want a **first-person, unflinching account** — not propaganda

- Those who believe that listening to old soldiers might prevent new ones from breaking