In case you are new to me, here is my story. I am a black woman living in the city of Detroit, MI. I have 6 children, 5 girls and a boy who happens to be my youngest. I love my children, but at this point in my life, I love me most. I know that sounds harsh to some, but the only explanation I can give you is this one. I need to love me most because if I continue to love them and others more, than my cup will leaveth me DRY! It will never runneth over and if I never take the time to filleth it back up, it will always stay DRY!
Now, if that's not good enough for you, then I don't know what else to tell you. I still love you though.
But anyway, let me rewind back only a few years of my life and give you some TEA about me. I was in an abusive "marriage" (and later when you get to know me, I will reveal an even BIGGER secret about that--- wonder why you see the quotes?). That "marriage" tore my soul apart. It sucked the life out of me and the goodness that was in there. YES, that is very real and very possible. I knew I deserved better than him (but this was the man I CHOSE to share my life with and love on and be loved on back, but NOT -- that was not the case at all, well at least not from his part with the "marriage" to me).
I knew that the relationship was not the best I could have for myself. It was over for me.
That one day finally came for me when I told him to leave (I talk about this in my book My Secret Life which you can buy here) and when I did, I felt so fucking free! I felt like I had released a 20-ton gorilla off my back. The next couple of years, however, took work sis! I promise you it wasn't easy, but with setting that goal to get rid of his ass, having my physical reminders as to why I left him in the first place, being alone and clearing my energy of his presence and that of others who harmed me some kind of way --- I was able to manifest a life (the one I REALLY wanted) without him in it. Even now, my phone number that he has the number to is still on, but the phone is broken to where I can't talk on it unless it's plugged into my car's Bluetooth. LOL, funny how the Universe works for us in giving us what we want, huh?
Anyway, fast forward to today, I am happier than I have ever been even though some days are happier than others, I understand who I am now, and I needed to go through THAT tumultuous "marriage" and losing him (or should I say finally getting the strength to drop his ass) and finding me to see that.
In the end Be-Love, it was definitely worth it! I appreciate all that he did to me, and I appreciate the lessons I learned from having him in my life. The greatest one is that now I am strong enough to have him and anybody else like that out of my life for good!
I hope this helps you to see, that no matter what you go through (and this story is just the TIP of the iceberg of things I have endured), you CAN make it through. You just have to desire it bad enough that you WILL make it through, and you WILL manifest the life you truly want --- day-by-day.
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Smoochez~ #CoachTonya