For the past few days, I've been in a pivotal place in my relationships. I've had teachable moments simultaneously. I could easily say this is hard to manage, but that would be a flat out lie because one of my gifts is multi-tasking. However, the difficult part for me is when all my relationships are in an uproar. I'm learning to go within myself when my partners and I can't see face to face. It's me, and three other people I have to be concerned about. The main issue at hand is communication. For a moment I felt like pulling my hair out because I just couldn't understand why it's hard for my partners to communicate. Well, Spirit spoke to me loud and clear, and believe me, I've been listening.
There are several reasons why people struggle to communicate in relationships, but the underlying issue is always fear. Unfortunately, most of us have experienced breakups and heartbreaks. These sometimes traumatic situations can put a strain on future partners. I have an open door policy, which means that my partners can talk to me about anything. I create an atmosphere in which they know they'll never be judged for how they feel. But, if what they're feeling has a negative affect on our relationship, I believe that it must be dealt with quickly and accordingly.
Now, here's the challenge when dealing with "men" who weren't taught how to be in touch with their emotions. Lucky for me (pun intended), I have three amazing men who shut down when they are going through something in their lives. And let me tell ya, it's frustrating as hell! I constantly feel like I've done something wrong. I become a little worry-box because it bothers me when the doors of communication are closed. I do give 'my loves' their space, but I also they know that I'm available just in case they decide to open up.
Honestly, at this point I've been compelled to make some hard decisions. We all know that it's difficult for a relationship to survive without communication. It's very stressful for the partner who is constantly begging the other to open up. We have to be honest with ourselves when we say we care for someone, how much neglect can we deal with before reaching a breaking point? Crazy, because I just had to quiet myself and ignore their random texts. I'm dealing with inconsideration, inconsistency, and selfishness on a regular basis, and this shit hurts!!
I decided that I have two choices at hand: #1 continue with the shenanigans and be stressed out everyday or #2 cut all ties and start over fresh and new. Which do you think I will choose? I giggle because everyone who knows me know that I don't mind starting over again, for me it's fun and exciting. Aye, you can blame the Gemini in me, because the duality in my personality is something to reckon with.
Look, note my newest hashtag #iamthequeen because this is my Queendom and I rule!
Well Fam, I'll keep y'all posted. #sorrynotsorry #lol
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