A few years ago, I found myself sitting on the edge of my bed at two in the morning, staring at my bank app as if the numbers might somehow rearrange themselves. Another unexpected bill had just appeared, and my chest felt tight with a familiar mix of anxiety, embarrassment, and disbelief.
How did I keep ending up here?
I was doing all the right things. I worked long hours, showed up online, and filled my journal with affirmations about abundance. Still, money seemed to slip away no matter how hard I tried. One month it was a surprise expense.
The next month a launch fell short. Over time, it stopped feeling like a problem with numbers and started to feel personal. It felt as though I was constantly being challenged by something bigger than me.
If any of this feels familiar, it is important to know that you are not broken, irresponsible, or incapable with money.
What you are experiencing is often the result of an old internal pattern that no longer aligns with the person you are growing into.
Financial disorder is rarely random. More often, it reflects what is happening beneath the surface.
It points to places where the nervous system does not yet feel secure holding abundance. It reveals subconscious beliefs that associate having more with risk, judgment, loss, or disconnection.
For many creatives and entrepreneurs, money becomes tied to self worth. Struggle is praised, while ease is treated with suspicion. Many of us were taught that comfort must be earned through effort and sacrifice, not received freely.
So when abundance begins to appear, the subconscious reacts with fear. What feels unfamiliar can register as unsafe, and self sabotage becomes a form of protection.
Carl Jung captured this clearly when he said that until the unconscious is brought into awareness, it will shape our lives and be mistaken for fate.
Financial instability is rarely about poor budgeting. It is far more often about unresolved emotional and energetic patterns.
No amount of positive thinking can create lasting change if the body does not feel secure receiving more.
The nervous system plays a powerful role in how much we allow ourselves to have. It influences energy, confidence, and the ability to sustain growth. When the body is locked in survival mode through constant urgency, overworking, or worry, abundance can feel threatening rather than supportive.
This is why people can earn more than ever and still feel stressed, scattered, or perpetually behind.
The foundation for change begins with safety. Simple practices such as slow breathing, time in nature, organized spaces, and unhurried mornings help signal to the body that it is safe to receive and to hold more. When the nervous system relaxes, expansion becomes possible.
Abundance grows in a body that believes it can sustain it.
The subconscious mind quietly runs many of our financial habits.
If it holds beliefs like money is always hard, I cannot manage wealth, or success comes at a cost, it will unconsciously recreate situations that confirm those ideas.
The good news is that beliefs are learned patterns, not permanent truths. They can be reshaped.
You can begin by gently examining the stories you absorbed over time.
- Who influenced your earliest ideas about money?
- When did you learn that success required sacrifice?
Which version of you feels safest staying in struggle, and is she ready to release that role?
True change does not come from forcing new beliefs into place. It comes from meeting old patterns with understanding rather than judgment. Compassion softens resistance and allows new pathways to form.
A simple daily practice can help
When financial fear arises, pause and breathe. Then remind yourself that it is safe to hold more and that you are learning to receive with ease. Let the words settle in your body rather than rushing past them.
The subconscious responds to repetition paired with feeling, not logic alone.
Money reflects alignment.
It mirrors how openly you engage with life and how willing you are to receive, express, and circulate energy. When your work is rooted in authenticity, service, and genuine enjoyment, financial flow often follows naturally.
When actions are driven by fear, proving, or exhaustion, that energy is reflected as well. This is not punishment. It is information.
Instead of pushing harder, alignment invites you to listen.
Does this offering feel expansive or restrictive?
Are you creating from self expression or from pressure?
Would you make the same choices if you trusted that abundance was already available to you?
When alignment leads, money is no longer something you chase. It becomes something that meets you where you are grounded and open.
Many women carry inherited patterns around money shaped by generations of scarcity and survival. Being told to settle for enough, to avoid wanting too much, or to prioritize security over self direction leaves deep imprints.
Healing your financial experience is about more than organization or income. It is about reclaiming the ability to receive without guilt.
Abundance is not a reward for effort. It is a natural state.
Ease does not mean a lack of ambition. It means trust.
Receiving is not selfish. It is a form of respect for what flows toward you.
As these truths become embodied, your financial world begins to respond differently. Opportunities align more smoothly. Support appears. Obligations feel less heavy.
The energy you project shifts from tension to stability.
Imagine waking up one day and noticing that checking your bank account no longer fills you with dread.
Decisions come from trust rather than stress. Giving happens from overflow instead of obligation. Rest feels deserved because your worth is no longer tied to constant output.
This is what changes when you stop attracting financial disruption. Not because life becomes perfect, but because your internal relationship with money transforms.
You move from fear into faith.
You remember that abundance is something you are meant to experience.
If you are ready to step out of repeating cycles, begin here.
Care for your nervous system daily.
Meet limiting beliefs with patience.
Create from alignment rather than fear
Remember that safety and abundance work together, not against each other.
You are capable of holding more.
You are deserving of overflow.
You are allowed to thrive with ease.
The universe responds to energy more than effort.
When your frequency becomes calm, clear, and confident, your financial life begins to reflect that state.
If this message resonates, you are invited to join the 33 Digital Abundance Challenge, a guided experience designed to help you embody the version of yourself who no longer pursues abundance, but lives it.
You were never meant to survive on scarcity.
You were meant to thrive in abundance with ease, trust, and full permission.