Graduating high school in 2019, I was directionless. As someone who didn't plan to go to college, I was aimless and had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. For a long time, I had been writing as a hobby since my teenage years, so in 2020 I tried turning writing into a career.

Writing never worked out for me as a career, I kept trying even though I knew it wasn't working. In October of 2020, I started risking becoming an alcoholic. As a newcomer to VRChat at the time, I fell heavily into the drinking crowd, and became one of my only things to look forward to while I was so heavily depressed.

However, in March of 2021, I had my first and only full alcoholic blackout. The following day was so miserable, that it made me feel so alive that I knew that something had to change, I had to try something new or risk falling back into it again.

With little artistic experience, I decided to fully delve into 3D on a whim. I had dabbled in it in the past for some minor avatar customization, but I barely knew anything.

Unable to drink due to my body physically recoiling from alcohol, 3D became my only solace. As someone with a very technical, yet also creative mind, 3D clicked with me in a way nothing else ever had.

I vowed to myself that I would dedicate everything to 3D, and that I would learn everything about it that I could. At this time, VRChat marketplaces were in their infancy, there were much less creators then there are today. So I decided to give it a try.

In June of 2022, I had my first major success (at the time), the Robot Bounty Hunter, an avatar by today's standards isn't great, but at the time filled a niche. Seeing that people enjoyed my content, and were willing to pay for it, this is when I fully delved into selling content for VRChat.

I spent a lot of time fighting with my inner self doubt, I'd often ask myself why people even liked my work, why they thought purchasing it over anyone else's was even worth it.

Ever since the beginning, I had tried to develop new strategies and methods for achieving certain results, things I hadn't seen other creators try very often. This became my drive, trying to push new methods into the avatar space.

As my skill improved steadily, I became more and more comfortable with my own work. My more niche methods started becoming a more interesting and alluring prospect to many.

It was not until 2024 that I finally started feeling comfortable in my own avatars, and I have found peace in my creations, starting to finally see the quality in my own work.

And here I am today, I am still standing after all this time as an avatar creator, and I feel proud of the progress I have made on my own through self-study.

My mission to myself is clear: I must continue to make content that pushes the very boundaries of what an avatar can do. I will continue to try my hardest to move the needle of what an avatar should be and make products of exceedingly high quality.

I thank all of you, the VRChat community, for giving my life purpose, for giving me a path in life that I love to tread down every day. From the bottom of my heart, thank you, thank you so much.

I would also like to thank all of my family, especially my parents. Many of you have been very supportive of my choice in path and have helped me so much, it is impossible to convey how thankful I am to have such a wonderful family.