This story is so dark that it should come with a trigger warning for real.
Back in the early 2000, when I was still leaving in London, something happened to my downstairs neighbour which really touched me at the time. He was already well in his forties when one day he found out that he wasn’t who he thought he was, or who he had been told and made to believe he was. His whole identity changed in a moment, for 40 years he believed himself to be Scottish to find out that in fact he was of Polish ancestry. It is just amazing how long people are willing to keep on lying to hide their own deviances.
He really struggled after finding out this heavy secret, understandably, I think it is more the realisation that you have been lied to for so long by your closest and dearest. Then there was also the story of one of my mother’s friend, who’s grandson had been lied to his whole life. He’s probably in his 40s now and has no idea that the man he’s been calling dad, is not his real father. His mother, his grand-mother and the rest of the whole family know and they all just kept that secret to this day I guess. I remember feeling appalled when my karmic mother told me about it, mind you it could also be another of her many fabricated lies to test how I would react… if it was me, if it was also my story…
I remember telling her that they needed to tell him the truth, that there is never a right time but that he deserved the truth and should know who his real father is. Also adding that secrets and lies were never a good idea as they eventually come out to the light one day one way creating a lot of drama and suffering for anyone connected in any way. I probably also said that there was nothing worth than lying to your child about their real identity for so long. There is worth than that, some purposely put their children through trauma going as far as trafficking them, literally sacrifing them and then playing dumb to why those same children may be struggling in life. A whole bunch of hypocrites honestly, can't you see all this has to stop.
It looks as if most families have their fair share of lies, the hidden truth of what really goes on behind close doors. His pretend dad was really horrible to him compared to the way he was treating the younger sister as he was obviously resenting him. Unknowingly, it sure looks as if that too was the story of my life, the way these people played with my mind is so perverse and wicked. This is why I just know they are going to be taught a big lesson by the real one; just as they reach the end of their lives and thought they were going to get away with it all, in their final chapter they get exposed. Divinely poetic justice and so it is.
And the more things come back to me and get connected, the more I feel this is the truth I was never meant to find out, well that and all the horrors connected with it and to it. Pretty sure now that my father is not who is listed on my birth certificate, and this will explain why the one who is, was so wicked, violent and resentful towards me for no apparent reason. Going as far as calling me a whore when I was still a virgin, and now I do understand why, that was part of their sick preemptive programming. He would even be hitting me out of the blue before I was sent away and never came back to the exception of holidays. Oh my just realised something else, once he used an iron bar, came up in my bedroom with it, I even asked what's that's for, he said you're going to see, told me to put my hand on the desk and hit my right hand until it turned blue.
I always knew this man was possessed by the devil, and now just realised that was done to stop me to write, something I have always loved doing. No wonder I had so much hatred for this man growing up but then chose to forgive when I got on my healing journey. Just counted, there had been at least five long periods of no contact with this bully in the past, this time being number 6, the final one. Truly ad vitam eternam this time.
Something else is really weird surrounding my birth and my childhood for sure. And my whole family included the extended part of the family, aunt and uncles and cousins all knew and some were directly involved in what had been done to me. But that was one of the big family secrets, connecting to so many other dark secrets, that no one was supposed to talk about or at least certainly not around me.
I have very little memory of my early childhood or just flashbacks but I sense something really horrendous was done to me as an infant or young child. Looking through my early years photo album, some of the photos do not look right, and some have been removed visibly taken out. It is all in the eyes, my school class photos also show some change in my look and in my energy not just due to the passing years.
And I wouldn’t be surprised if it was revealed that I was trafficked as a very young child and used for all kind of satanic rituals or the like. I know that I was sold to some dark secret societies or literally put on some government program as an experiment of sort, which ends up being the same, they all work together. They may even have tried to kill me or damage me right at birth, which would explain what an osteopath noticed on my head years ago. He said that it looked as if something severe happened during or at birth, he had noticed something weird around the top of my head and now knowing what I know it all connects.
In this photo, I was about to turn five years old on holiday at my grand-parents, there with my grand-father and brother at the Lagemaye river side situated in between two forests in the periguord south west France.
There is something really off with this pic, what are they looking at behind me? And what just happened to me? It looks as if I have just seen the devil himself, I can see the terror in my eyes. In another photo taken on the same day, I look smiling and happy, a striking difference with the above picture which appears first in the album but must in fact have been taken after.
I knew I had been violated as a child but it happened when I was a bit older as I remember my younger sister was a toddler already. I always sensed that somehow my karmic father was connected to that abuse. It happened in a night train as we were travelling to my grand-parents house for the holidays, my mother and two younger siblings, and I always felt that it would not have happened had he been there with us.
However, I now know that this incident was not random and had been purposely orchestrated by those sickos to give me another traumatic experience. Maybe seeing previous abuses had not dented me as much as they hoped, they repeated it at an age when I would remember and be more affected by it. It sure did work and certainly affected me until it became clear it was time to heal after another crisis in 2000 which I now guess was not random either. Remember these people always knew the big secret about the child I was and took a sick pleasure in trying to break me at every opportunity.
It was part of their sick game desecrating the divine feminine. Now understanding how the "elite" pedos hiding in secret societies have been committing terrible sexual abuses and crimes against children for the longest time, I must have been very much in demand. Although, it was long before the internet and the dark web, pictures and videos may well have been circulated and sold nonetheless. However, I do hope and pray that I am very wrong about that one, yet having discovered how deeply sick, evil and destructive these pedophiles are, I am ready to hear anything at this stage. Now is the time for truth and justice, that I know.
My grand-mother who loved me and who knew what had been done to me and why I was here along with all the secrecy and mystery surrounding my birth left me an inheritance, a house and enough money to heal and live in peace knowing this is what I would need to accomplish the mission destined for this soul journey.
However, her will was not respected and forged instead and I never received nor was I told anything about it. You may wonder how I found out if I was never told. Well at first it was trying to understand why my whole family would have turned on me and why they were so invested in trying to get rid of me. Then remembering things that had been said by some at various moments in the past, connected it all. They had been lying for a very long time, obviously hiding something, and people being ready to do anything for money, it all made sense and explained why even aunts, uncles and cousins were all in on the secret & conspiracy on my life.
And then as they had done back in 1990, probably sending me away at that time purposely so that I would not be around to receive what my grand-parents left me, they did it again more recently. There was something else to receive and it was intercepted by them, frauds went on, things were shared amongst them, leaving me with nothing none the wiser once again...
This is why they wanted me either mentally gone ready for the mad house or better yet 6ft under.
Therefore, still being alive eight months later and having survived all their attacks is seriously problematic to them. This also why they went overdrive since 2021 and tried so hard to eliminate me on my last visit there. I was still blinded unable to imagine they could commit such crimes and definitely not against me, their daughter, sister or niece.
These people have hidden their wicked games so well for decades, this just so surreal. This karmic family truly deserve many oscars honestly, they even enrolled their children and grand-children in the ongoing deception. Not just self-destroy themselves taking down their whole lineage, how sick is that, right where the devil drive them in the abyss. .
However, noticing things and then seeing through their huge deception, it was just a matter of connecting it all together like a thousand pieces puzzle. When on April 4, 2024, I was asked to sign some documents digitally to be co-owner with my siblings of the house my mother was about to purchased, I noticed a couple of errors on the paperwork. After my karmic sister asked if I noticed anything, I told her yes but only mentioned one of the inaccuracies. After that, they back tracked and my mother said well in fact she’s buying it on her own and changes would be made later. She even had the nerve to add, yes due to people being incompetent, that comment rang an alarm bell already. The way it went down, I just knew they were up to no good; I contacted their notary clearly stating I didn’t want to be involved with any of them, to take me out of whatever they were doing, I didn't want any part in it.
So when these same unscrupulous people are sending police to my door or calling the embassy saying they are worried about me and do not understand my silence, they are simply lying and playing games. They all know full well why I am done with them and dead to them as they so wished and still wish, as they are bound to lose all they have stolen and end up behind bars for a very long time if the truth ever catches up with them. So this is another reason why so many people only wish one thing at this time: my death.
It’s like all they did previously over the years to disturb my life as much as they could wasn’t enough, they wanted to end me permanently and completely.
Instead, I have given them a rebirth after they left me for dead and I have become their worst nightmare.
For some it is the lies they have told, the things they did and the secrets they have kept for more than fifty years, basically the past coming to haunt them back big time. Not just to them but to all those who had a hand in trying to destroy that lineage.
That’s karma at its finest and I know all my ancestors are cheering me on, along with all those who passed over because of all these demon driven people. Now is the time for a lot of people to reap what they sowed and go down. Truth and justice time, I just know it, I can feel it, truth and justice is on its way!
There is no way the universe is going to let such deceit and abuses to go on any longer. I feel it was allowed to go on as long as it did, to show them that I could make it on my own regardless of what they stole and what they did. And to also teach them that unlike them I could succeed without whoring myself, trafficking others or selling my soul to the devil.
And here they were thinking they were going to get away with it, especially the older ones in their 90s, 80s & 70s who have built their lives on lies, greed, harvesting the energy of others and all kind of sick murder plots. As I told them in a group email back in May, when I started to piece things together and solve my own case: ‘ca va piquer’ meaning it’s going to sting. Because, I just knew this was just too vile and cruel to remain unpunished, in spiritual court that is of course. Ultimately, spiritual court is the only court that matters and where in perfect divine timing, divine justice is served. No bribes, no lies and no time wasting.
The only court where you can be sure, those who did wrong by you, will for sure receive their divine judgement. No doubt about that. No amount of lies, money or gold could ever disturb nor corrupt a fair judgement and just outcome. It is just a matter of time, trusting, having faith and knowing it is so, the universe loves nothing more but to reestablish balance when things get too out of balance.
Staying focused on your wish fulfilment as long as it comes from well intended intentions, you'll always be supported in your healing and on your journey.
Since I have not heard from them, on my birthday my mother sent me an email playing stupid still pretending not to understand and even hoping that I am going to tell her I soon come to visit like last year. Clearly still pretending and still trying to manipulate unable to stop her lies. Mind you when you lie for so long, you end up believing your own lies or Alzheimer it is. I wouldn’t be surprised if they all start to develop that as they try to escape facing truth and justice. It doesn't even matter at this stage, I forgive all of them but that certainly doesn't mean reconciliation. No contact and no access for any of them, family, frenemies, who ever, do not even try to finesse me again, and attempt to worm yourself back into my life.
Those who thought it was funny and such a bright idea to take kindness for weakness, and target me, do yourself a favour, do not try to manipulate me again, it won't go down well.
May all narcissists and other demon possessed individuals learn to not even try to deceive, use and abuse anyone else either, instead seeking the healing they so desperately need.
People may be able to somewhat escape their judgement in the physical but never in the spiritual court, this is why our souls end up carrying the karma of previous lives into the next. However, they never tell you about that and even made you believe that reincarnation is not real. A bunch of perpetual liars who decided to infiltrate everything and in their cryptic ways take over, they know it's time for their reckoning.
Wow I can’t even believe I am writing about all this and it is my life. Now I understand more what happened to some family members, and some of the obvious struggles in their lives and in their minds. No wonder knowing such dark secrets and in some cases being made to join in the lies, manipulation and confusion, what a mess. Maybe they were also violated as young children, drugged and mkultra trained to follow orders orchestrating abuse and trauma, with temporary amnesia. The know it all scientist, biologist, doctors and pharmacist in my karmic family would have had all they needed to commit such undetectable crimes for decades, especially when signed off, encouraged and paid off by corrupt secret societies, governments and most likely even the freaking Vatican. They are all in it together, we should rename them the demonic trinity for real.
No wonder they all hated me covertly and always had to pretend, the day that will was read and they found out pretty much everything had been left to me, they must have been livid. They could not have that, so calling on all their freemasons, rotary, lion club you name it s.s connections, they made sure things got rectified to their liking and benefits. Which I am pretty sure, if ever proven stolen inheritance must be is a serious fraudulent crime. It’s like I can see all of them having meetings, plotting and conniving.
It took a few years before they sold my grand-parents house, maybe the time it took for them to all agree to commit this followup crime together.
Once they had and all got their stolen money, they all got divorced to the exception of the big sister, but clearly they all benefited and so did their children and grand-children in the process. The one who was meant to get most, got nothing, it’s weird how people can be with money. I know I would have been generous to them with it, probably thinking it was a bit unfair especially if the reason for such a choice was not explained and still kept a secret. Another reason why they thought it was best not to let me know about anything. My grand-parents and ancestors before them must be so pissed with them, imagine passing away leaving your wishes, to then have others behind your back, cancel the whole thing and do what they want to do, committing all kind of forgery, fraud, criminal activities basically. I know I wouldn't like that to have been done to me, for my last dying wish to be totally discarded. What a disrespect, another type of ultimate betrayal, and another one coming from envy, jealousy and greed.
Still it is what it is, let me leave it here for now as this is something that I have yet to see confirmed, but even old letters sent by some of them when I first was in London in the early nineties, offer clues. It’s all there, hiding in plain sight once you are ready to see. Clearly, I was not meant to see until revelation time.
to be continued...