Here's How I Transformed My Porn Addiction Into Fuel That I Used To Make My First Money Online.

Porn Is NOT The Real Villain.

he's NOT the one who :

• kills drive.

• steals confidence.

• makes you a fucking loser.

the real villain just wants you to believe that because that's the only way he can control you.

let me explain why...

do you recognise that feeling?

jerking off to some stupid video...

you were breaking a promise to yourself once again, but at the time you didn't care. you were lost in the moment.

you didn't want to finish fast, because the reality would hit you straight after.

you wanted to escape.

but as soon as the inevitable came and you finished...

all the satisfaction was gone.

your thoughts hit you like a speeding truck.

the shame. the anger. the hopelessness.

all came back. instantly.

it's like someone just switched something in your brain... like if someone walked inside and took control.

like if a shadow slipped into your brain and regrouped all the negativity at you, at your self-worth, at your confidence.

and even if you won't believe me...

that's EXACTLY what happened.

the reason you can't break your porn addiction isn't your fault.

it's the anomaly. that's the real villain.

it's a bloody vampire seeking your energy, he bites your insecurities to gain what he desires.

porn isn't the villain. it's just a tool.

you've been playing the wrong game the whole fucking time.

that's why you failed every single time.

you were playing the game from the wrong end, that's why it was hard.

once you understand what's REALLY stopping you... it will be hard NOT to stop watching porn.

hear me out brother...

wasting your life, struggling with the addiction, not trusting yourself that makes you stuck in the same place...

it's NOT your fault.

it's NOT about porn either.

you've been convinced into believing that it is, but there's more to it.

that shadow in your mind who has been whispering all the time and taking your confidence...

"you're weak"

"just one more time"

"you won't win, it's pointless trying"

that's the energy vampire.

and he has been feeding off you for years.

remember this disgusting name...

because right now we're going to put this motherfucker to the ground.

but firstly... let me show you the life he’s been stealing from you all this time.

you won't feel like a slave to your life anymore.

instead, you'll be the one commanding it.

no pressure, no stress, no anxiety.

you'll have a brutally crystal clear vision, because to find out your true destiny you don't have to look far away...

you just need to unbecome everything that isn't really you.

so you'll become who you were supposed to be in the first place.

you won't need to find confidence, you'll unleash it naturally.

you'll feel a difference. people will ask what happened. women will start eyeing you up.

they feel your energy, and your energy is a reflection of your inner mental state.

all you need to do is find your true self. because his energy is the highest form of self-accomplishment.

I did it. life has never been so sweet...

end of the school year. I'm 15.

summer started.

a lot of fun coming up, right?

for everyone, yeah.

but not for me.

while everyone was enjoying the atmosphere of the early vacations, I was lying in bed with wrecked confidence and motivation.

I didn't believe I could have fun, I thought I didn't deserve it.

I didn't think I was enough for people to like me, I thought that I just didn't fit in.

I couldn't look people in the eyes because each time I tried, I thought they were reading my thoughts, and they alone would tell them everything about me.

I was scared they could sense the smell of my cum stinking room, the desperate checking for social media notifications, stalking some girls I found attractive from the area, but never had the balls to even let them know I exist. I would rather be stuck in my comfortable bubble of shame. far from any danger. (the only one was regret)

you know this "look" in people's eyes, when you can sense as if they know what you're struggling with.

it's always negative... as if they were signaling to you "fuck off loser".

even though I didn't give a shit about other people, it still was affecting my confidence in a way I will never forget, and never, ever fucking come back to.

also, my perception of women was fucked.

not consciously, but subconsciously.

I was eyeing up every single girl that walked past me, imagining the weirdest things my pornified mind would think of.

It was pissing me off VERY bad, but I just couldn't stop it, I was fighting the unbeatable.

It was making me feel such shame that I was apologising to them in my thoughts, in case "they would read my mind".

yes, it was that bad.

one time a random girl sat next to me at the bus, and my lonely ass started imagining scenarios with her, the ones I'd never want to say out loud, even right now.

but I will tell you them, since I'm not this person anymore. he's dead.

I was thinking about things such as what if we were in a relationship... physical touch... you know the kind of touch that makes you comfortable and safe. the pornified stuff, don't need to explain.

I was feeling so ashamed I couldn't even look at her, even her fucking direction, just staring at the window like a living ghost.

I was too scared to look at her shoes, let alone her face.

It was draining.

the only way I could stop the pornification of my mind was through quitting porn, but my beliefs were clear...

"I am not strong enough to do that."

but a couple of days ago... everything was normal.

I was training hard, researching some business ideas to start in the summer, even starting some fresh ones.

my confidence was also high, since the first "successful" season I had in football happened only because we all put the hard work in. and I was the top scorer. the heart of the team.

I was basically at the top of the world, the summer was supposed to be the real prime. I was excited for the grind.

everything was going so well...

but...

I hit a rock bottom after reaching my prime.

this was the period of my life when I just finished a football season, which meant that I had a whole month off.

but a whole month off was the last thing I wanted.

at the time, my life's meaning was progress, becoming better at my passion and breaking my limits.

I didn't care about anything, I just wanted to get better at football.

but...

I was burned out.

I couldn't play football anymore, my central nervous system was destroyed after this intense season.

so even how badly I didn't want to do it... I had to take a couple of days off.

but I didn't realise one thing...

the energy vampire was waiting for this all the time.

the school ended. the football club's training stopped. I stopped going out with anyone.

I was alone. with nothing to distract me. and a fried CNS.

at the time I didn't realise I was burned out, I took it as a weakness and self sabotage.

and that's how it all started...

I was so obsessed about becoming better that after my body refused to push any further, I blamed myself for being "weak"

and because of that I didn't really recover during those "days off" - because I perceived them not as rest...

but as a period when I lost control.

this was my daily "routine" :

• wake up.
• check notifications. (what did I expect?)
• scroll in my bed for hours BEFORE moving my ass. (closing tiktok then reopening it again on autopilot multiple times)
• crawl out of my bed, feeling absolutely drained from my willingness to live.
• tried to play some games to distract myself from everything else, but nothing felt good. I was back to scrolling.
• when I got an urge... you know I didn't stop myself.

I was stuck in a cycle of hopelessness and shame.

firstly, I thought that it would be just a small slip after the season ended.

a "deserved rest" after working so hard.

but then this small "slip" turned into days...

then weeks...

it was escalating to the point where I was so lost in my own cycle of draining my dopamine receptors that nothing felt real anymore.

sometimes I thought that I could actually break the cycle, but they were just the dopamine sparks from social media, motivating content that is nothing but pure mental masturbation.

one time I was watching tiktok with these "motivational" pages and thought that it was making me better.

until one of the videos said "do you really think your parents don't know you watch porn? they can smell the stink of sperm in your room. they see your fucking zombie lust consumed eyes. they just hide that they know, because they're ashamed of your weakness"

this hit me like a 140mph/km truck.

"so you stopped watching po-"'

of course fucking not.

but from this moment it felt MUCH FUCKING WORSE, since I knew that everyone knew.

it was fucking horrible.

one time I went to take a cold shower, thinking it would "make me go back in the game".

but instead, I made it as hot as possible to overstimulate myself ever more with the thought-crashing heat, so I didn't have to spend any more time with my brutal mind. escaping the reality check.

I would sit there for 30 minutes, making my already fucked skin through atopic dermatisis even more red and bloated by the too hot water.

If it wasn't enough, I would scratch it and look as if someone had beaten me up afterwards.

sometimes it escalated to a point where my skin was scratched to fucking blood and then I felt so horrible I couldn't sleep all night, while my thoughts were running 100m sprint race on repeat.

all the negative emotions I immediately attached to myself were making this whole process longer than anyone would want it to be.

I didn't realise that all the negativity was just the energy vampire trying to keep me stuck.

every day was lived with one thought:

"I will break through."

"I will break through."

"I will break through."

and after a couple of weeks with minimal hope...

I finally managed to break through...

(or at least, that's what I thought)

I focused all of my attention on research. I wanted to finally start a business that doesn't fucking suck and actually earns you money.

after about 2 weeks of ONLY research... I started this "writing" business.

I created my first tiktok account, substack, X.

I was absolutely obsessed in learning, that's all I did for the first 2 weeks, excluding writing.

so... everything looks like I were back AND with a new direction, right?

not fucking close.

the first "motivation" spike burned out quickly.

I didn't fall as hard as earlier, but the bad habits returned anyway.

porn, scrolling, junk food.

no matter what method I tried... I just couldn't stop.

I always found myself being really locked in for a couple of days, and then the "motivation" suddenly disappeared, usually on day 3, 4.

It was on repeat for months.

even though I was literally teaching people how to stop doing bad habits...

even though I helped people overcome their addictions...

even though I knew the best methods...

I was still stuck.

until... I noticed a pattern.

I was never, NEVER in between these two.

I was either fully focused on becoming better with real obsession or just focusing on not breaching my standards.

never. ever. in between.

I started wondering... why is it always like this?

why one day I'm the man and the second day I'm just a boy from the crowd?

the only thing I would need is to increase the time I'm the man, and I would be good.

but how the fuck would I even do that?

this is when I started research.

I was already fluent in the topic, since I was writing about it a lot.

you're not who you are.

you're who you believe you are.

but it still didn't click as I wanted... how could I make my beliefs better?

I tried the "methods"

"affirmations"

"visualisation"

"vision board"

It all just felt off, everyone was glazing it, but it didn't work for me.

but finally... I found the real key...

every single time I went up, I did it without a clue why.

It always "just" happened.

like if someone just switched something in my brain... the same way it happens after you cum. (so-called post nut clarity)

It's weird, I know.

but it feels exactly the same, but without shame, hopelessness, anger.

It's the same thing. but flipped around.

eventually... I figured it all out.

every time I was stuck, he was responsible for it.

every time I was effortlessly grinding, he was out of reach.

so the only thing I needed to do is figure out :

• what makes him able to reach me.
• what makes him unable to reach me.

I was doing these things unconsciously, so I just had to identify them, make them conscious.

and I did.

You Don't Have To Fight Blind How I Did...

I've figured it out so you don't have to waste YEARS how I did. and those years sucked.

the moment I realised what's really stopping me, my life changed forever.

I don't say it to hype you up, I'm saying what fucking happened...

I stopped needing to set up a routine to work. It became automatic.

all of my bad habits disappeared. I forgot about them existing.

and I feel fucking excited live.

this is what happens when you eliminate 2 things.

• your old identity.

• the energy vampire.

let's say that your old identity is a castle.

and the energy vampire is the army of land troops defending it.

how can you destroy the castle?

beating the whole army doesn't sound so fun... pass.

we're aiming to destroy the castle before the army even reaches us, so when the castle gets destroyed, they all surrender.

how do we do that?

bombard the fucking castle.

this is what it's all about.

and the best part is...

here's how to bombard the castle step-by-step...

this isn't just another "method" online.

it's the inevitable process you'll go through sooner or later in your life.

I already went through it, but it took me years of fighting blind, and it wasn't fun.

It realigns you to your true raw self and kills your old identity & the energy vampire for good.

so let me make it clear...

You Have 2 Options:

• 1) Try To Find The Solution By Yourself & Waste YEARS Of Your Life That Will Be Full Of Pain, Uncertainty, and Failures.

• 2) Grab The Step-By-Step Protocol That Will Walk You Through EVERYTHING Required To Kill Your Old Identity. It's Impossible To Fail. Because Your Desired Outcome Is Just The Side Effect Of This Process.

so basically, you can either add unbearable pain of struggles and uncertainty by trying to find it all out by yourself. (may take months. may take years)

or take it right now and solve your biggest life struggles in just the next 90 days... because you'll be guided step-by-step.

this isn't what is "likely" to happen.

It's what WILL INEVITABLY happen if you just go through the step-by-step guide.

you can't fail with this. I made sure it's that way.

you don't need to guess anymore. I have all the answers you need. I fought the battles so you don't have to.

after you walk through all the steps you won't even recognise yourself... people will ask what happened and you'll just smile, not bothering to answer because they would need to walk through the same path as you did to understand it.

• no shame.

• no bad habits.

• new purposeful direction.

• relentless drive to progress that no one around you understands.

• an enjoyable way of making money online while becoming better every single day.

that's what is waiting for you.

The 8-Step Process on Killing Your Old Identity & Keeping The Energy Vampire Out Of Reach. You'll be walked through everything: What is making you stuck in your current life. Why everything you've tried so far didn't work. How to finally change your life after all the struggle.

The 3-Step Guide On How To Keep Your Fuel Full = Keep Your Old Identity In The Coffin and The Energy Vampire Starving. I didn't see anyone talk about this... but this is the sole reason you won't quit and progress like crazy. This is the secret weapon people don't reveal.

you're still missing the biggest prize on the table.

because if you don't channel all the raw masculine energy into something real, purposeful, that doesn't let you sleep...

you won't be able to maintain it.

so... let me introduce you...

The 90-Day Blueprint Designed Perfectly To Make Your True Self Burn While Transforming Your Raw Masculine Energy Into What I Call "Purposeful Money."

You'll follow a 90-Day Blueprint, breaking it down step-by-step, week by week, day by day, into exact steps you need to take. no guesswork. 100% certainty on your next move.

What you see below aren't modules. but sections. and each section is about 5-10 modules long, and every module is about 1000 words of pure value. (do the math)



• reinforce your new identity.

• starve the energy vampire permanently.

• keep your mind and body aligned with your mission.

• and finally… start making real money on your own terms.

so by the end of all of this you won't just "feel" differently...

you'll have something to show for it.

• money.

• purpose.

• complete control over your life.

and what I'm telling you here isn't what is "likely" to happen.

It's guaranteed...

I've broken it down into so many details that you can't fail, as long as you follow the steps I'm teaching you.

1) The Avatar Reincarnation Is The Phase Of Understanding Why You're Stuck.

2) The Endless Ascension Is The Phase Of Understanding How To Never Let Yourself Get Stuck Again. (and how to break through if you're stuck right now)

3) The Silent Method Is The Phase Of Action. Using All The Knowledge And Channelling All Your Energy Into A Greater Purpose, And The Whole Business Model Is Designed Perfectly To Keep You In The Game. (designed around the avatar reincarnation and endless ascension, to make them work by just working on the business)

but before anything...

let me show you who the silent method is designed for:

if :

• you were this “quiet” kid in school.

• you're more of a "silent" than "loud" guy in life.

• you used to grind on online games back then, you even thought about monetising your gaming skills, that’s why you never played “play for fun” games, only the competitive ones.

• you prefer working late at night alone, in a quiet environment when nothing interrupts you, rather than in groups.

• you’re either FULLY IN or FULLY OUT. (e.g you find grinding on your business all day easier than “2 hours a day with a balanced lifestyle”)

• you find yourself discovering a skill and then making your whole life about it, till you max it out, then you forget about it existing, completely.

• you would enjoy deep learning and then teaching your view of the information for a living. (e.g human nature, how the brain works, manipulation, how the universe works, emotions and life graphs, subconscious reprogramming, etc)

• you love the idea of building your own “empire”, stacking up information brick by brick until you have a large castle. (e.g you played online games where you developed your bases, like clash of clans)

• you’re more of an “introvert” type of guy, you don’t like the idea of working with a team, managing it, doing sales calls, or talking to a camera.

• you would be a writer, doing the work solo in a silent, peaceful environment.

did I describe you better than you ever have?

If I did… then this method isn’t just for you…

It was literally built by someone like you, for people EXACTLY like you.

what will the silent method teach you?

I won’t only show you how to start.

I will show you how to ACTUALLY get results.

• how I went from 0 to 22k followers on tiktok. (I was stuck on 2k followers for 9 months, then I cracked the code, I know exactly why I blew up, and how it’s repeatable. I will make sure you won’t be stuck like I was)

• how to build a product that feels like therapy for your audience.

• how to sell without the need to speak, or even show your face.

• how to become someone who doesn’t copy any trends… and just become the one people copy for views because it is “cracking the algorithm right now” — while you’re just being yourself.

• how to create a routine perfectly designed for you… so work feels like playing your favorite video game (I explain how to rewire your dopamine systems, so yeah, IT ACTUALLY FEELS THAT WAY)

• also, I will make sure you don't miss a single step, because you'll be guided step-by-step, for 90 days.

this isn't just another “scam” course online…

people have so fucked beliefs that they think selling courses is “bad”, that people who do it “scam” people, do it only for profit, etc.

while some people might actually do it that way… I actually put heart into this.

this isn’t just another info product.

It’s a system I built by bleeding mentally, I made sure it works. If you do.

Here's What Is Inevitable For You To Happen If You Just Finish The Growth System... and Then Complete The 90-Day-Blueprint Inside The Silent Method...

you'll walk with your head up, because confidence is your brother now.

money? girls? porn?

"I ever struggled with those?"

life before you entered will feel like a blur, because it was a blur.

you didn't experience life yet, your prime years are yet to come.

life after you've maxed out the basics, such as money, self-control, and masculinity, hits way different. way better.

and this is what the system will provide you.

all the basics. maxed out.

we live in times so weird that mastering the basics isn't actually "basic", because most of today's man are comfortable pussies.

you can't feel safe around them, they can't provide you with a decent life, they can't even talk to you without emotions. they can't even talk to themselves because they keep on escaping reality with cheap gratification.

I'll make sure you become someone way more than that.

and if you're still reading this, you want it too.

The Reason You're Chained In Your Current Life.

And How To Break The Chains.

2) Endless Ascension.

The Reason You'll Never Get Chained In This Life Again.

And How To Fuel Your New Masculine Life.

3) The Silent Method.

The Reason The Growth System Will Work For You. It's Designed To Keep You In The Game Because It's Made Around The 2 Earlier Steps.

And How To Earn Purposeful Money As A Byproduct.

every moment you waste on "is it really something for me?" is a moment the energy vampire increases his momentum he has built.

also, he is the one making you think that way.

because he knows he'll be dead if you make that decision.

so he creates all the doubt...

all the "what if this?" "what if that?"

while you already know the answer. you already know what to do.

there's a reason you're still reading this. and this isn't curiosity.

you're feeling strong resistance and strong drive. this is the energy vampire fighting with your true self.

whoever wins is up to you...

he's constantly trying to convince you that...

"you're too weak..."

"it won't work for you..."

"you'll only waste your time..."

but is this actually the truth?

are you really too weak?

is this really not going to work?

will you really only waste your time?

the truth is...

none of this is true.

and here's why... (fuck you energy vampire)

• you're not weak, it's the energy vampire's survival mechanism. he feeds on your negativity.

• as long as you follow the simple steps that are written step-by-step in order so you don't have to do anything besides acting on them... It's guaranteed to work.

• If you go through all the knowledge inside and then through the 90-Day-Blueprint... You won't even recognise yourself.

Do You Still Want To Listen To His Whispers?

Or Do You Want To Take Action For Yourself?

think of your true masculine self...

what would he do?

would he stress over losing $0.55 fucking dollars?

because that's the daily $ equivalent of the growth system.

would your true self think of it as a risk?

or more like a lifetime opportunity to kill your old self and change your life forever?

the best part is...

you know the answer. we both know it.

the only thing that will determine whether you'll actually change for good is this decision... RIGHT NOW.

every moment spent on procrastination isn't just "thinking"

it's the energy vampire winning with you.

so...

as long as it's still just $0.55/day...

what I just showed you is only the core system.

but once you’re inside… you’ll also find 7 more bonus courses, completely free.

I didn’t bother telling you about them earlier, because they’re just the icing on the cake...

but they’re there, waiting for you.

and I’m adding new stuff every single month.

so if you ever thought “what if I run out of things to learn?”

Forget it. You’ll never run out.

just focus on killing the energy vampire first.

the rest… let's say it will be a nice surprise.

love, koldan9.