Please, please, please forgive me for not writing sooner. I have really been into my reading zone and have already read 183 books, and that's not including book box series, which counts as one title but has like five books in one. I have also read novellas, which are shorter books and quite enjoyable, even though it feels like a teaser. My goal for the year is to read 500 books, because why not. Does that excuse my absence? Um, it should but y'all tell me lol.
I'm still very active on my authors' pages on the socials Facebook and Instagram, less so on the latter though because I don't really know what to post if it's not a meme or original picture and I rarely have something original. I really need to change it up but with my fibromyalgia I'm always tired and only find time to do mundane tasks and read. And sleep. Lots and lots of sleep, never feeling well rested at all. Which sucks considering I sleep so much.
I guess, y'all want to know what I've been doing so far this year. Well, I am on a weight loss journey, since I gained so much since I quit smoking weed. I miss it, but at the same time, my mind is clearer and I can focus better i.e. all my book reading. I've been trying to write and since I read so much smut, decided on writing smutty poetry. But I've only written two poems so far. I feel like scolding myself. Us writers have such high expectations for ourselves and with my imposter syndrome, I feel like I'm failing or I'm behind the pack. Then again, I've always written for myself.
I need to not be so hard on myself and do things when I'm inspired, like I've always done. Thankfully, I follow some amazing authors and poets, so I'm constantly inspired! You guys are amazing and always interact with me, despite my ramblings and ravings.. your girl can rant! I need an outlet and I honestly need to blog more so I can utilize my voice, regardless if people read it or not. I either have a lot of shit to say or I say a lot of nothing for shits and giggles. You guys get my humor, so that helps!
I just finished therapy so that was fun. It's the next to last visit before this doctor moves on. The mental health outpatient clinic I go to uses fellowships, so I only have a psychiatrist for a year. I think I've had 13 psychiatrists in all, since I've been with them since 2011 I think. Oh, that reminds me, it's Mental Health Awareness and Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month! I'm one of the lucky few who have BPD and finally the right medications to keep me calm, less anxious, depressed and anxious! Yay therapy!!
If you or someone you know needs to talk to someone, there's SAMHSA’s National Helpline, 1-800-662-HELP (4357) (also known as the Treatment Referral Routing Service), or TTY: 1-800-487-4889 is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders. This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations.
Stay safe, my Loves and take care of yourselves! Until, next time
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XO T 💜