No, this doesn’t rhyme, but it’s real.
Love can make us do some crazy things,
I used to be someone who craved love so badly but never admitted that to myself.
I didn’t really know what love meant either. I loved the feeling of a man's hands around my waist, touching my face, and telling me how beautiful I was. I loved when I felt wanted as a man was on top of me.
I loved hearing "I need you" before a man put it in, in fact, that’s what they would say right before, every time: "I need you."
I started to catch on. After they said those words and the act was over, those words held no weight, no truth, no substance. But my God, those 2 seconds of feeling needed and wanted sufficed any feeling of worthlessness and disgust I had built up in my body.
That was the love I knew to be true.
Now, when I crave those deep feelings of love, I turn to myself. I look at myself in the mirror and say those words: "I need you." Now those words are real. They have meaning and actions derived from them.
Now I know the true meaning of love.
I say this because I had a moment. I felt alone within myself. I felt alone and was craving that love.
I went to my mirror and said "I need you." I started crying and hugging myself in pure gratitude for the effort I make toward myself every day.
True love starts within.
Alexis Bernier
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