I’ve gone through various sufferings since my childhood so I’m considerate of your pain and your sorrow, your struggle about depression and the relationship between you and your parents, your anxiety, the relationship between you and your partner, illness, you feel like your life and your existence are worthless, sexual trauma, emotional neglect, you feel like you want to die, you don’t find what to do after you attempted suicide, you try to improve yourself, you can’t stand your mom who tries to be perfect, you were bullied, you get hurt, you hurt yourself and other people.

I share about one of various sufferings with you, I suffered from her justice and the judgment of my mother who tried to be perfect over years since my childhood because her justice caused what I got bullied at school and my home both for 6 years.

Her justice destroyed my heart. We can’t feel peace and freedom into justice, justice doesn’t give us healing, I’ve realized that.

Six months later my father got terminal cancer, I’ve encountered my precious partner. I’ve faced myself deeply through my life, my pain and my sorrow, and my precious partner, I’ve realized what we learn through our lives and our parents and our pain, sufferings, illness. In my case, realizing what I learn through my life and my partner and my parents has liberated myself more from difficulty of living and my struggle regarding my mother who tries to be perfect, has brought my inside freedom and peace and kindness more.

For me, my life so far was my journey of healing my pain, I encountered various people who self-harm, transgender, a mother who lost her daughter through the suicide of a daughter, the people who had kindness and love deeply. And I’ve seen their pains and darkness, light as well as I’ve seen darkness and light through my life.

For me, music is over the languages and the words easily. I think music has the power of helping and supporting our hearts and our lives.

We go through various things and emotions, I’ve hoped to compose music for staying considerate of your feelings and your pain always, I’ve composed my music as the landscape comes to your mind through various situations about your life.

I’m so glad that you receive and feel my music through your sensibility because your sensibility brings me a new discovery, inspires me so deeply.

The current my life means my journey of discovering the world I don’t know and I never imagine.  

I’m creating my music’s movies and I feel a difficulty because I’m trying to do what I don’t do so far. I’m enjoying a difficulty to create them.  

by Orga Mitsuki