Heart Rate Variability, Movement, Trauma, and Finding a Different Path to Healing
The Moth Journal • Personal essay • Part I
What if the work of healing also depends on having enough energy to meet it? The Missing Floor is a personal essay about exhaustion, movement, and finding a different doorway into reflection and stillness. It follows the author's experience of learning about heart rate variability, reconsidering caffeine, indoor cycling, and exploring body-focused practice—while keeping lived experience distinct from what research can establish.
Personal discussion of trauma, depression, fatigue, and recovery. Read at your own pace.
Before I Could Find Stillness
For as long as I can remember, fatigue has been part of my life. Not the ordinary tiredness that follows a demanding day, but a persistent exhaustion that seemed to accompany me everywhere. Social interaction could leave me completely drained. Work took an enormous toll, consuming so much of my energy that there was often very little left for anything else.
Alongside that exhaustion, I lived with depression of a depth that is difficult to communicate. It could be morbidly intense. And yet I made a genuine effort to approach life with optimism. I wanted to see possibility, to grow, to learn, to love, and to participate in the world around me. I could believe wholeheartedly that life was beautiful and worth exploring while struggling to find the energy to participate in it.
I was not lacking an interest in living. I was struggling with the capacity to live the life I wanted.
My struggles reached back into childhood. Complex trauma followed me into adulthood as chronic PTSD, and it wreaked havoc on my relationships. I wanted connection, trust, intimacy, and the ability to love and be loved without the past continually intruding upon the present. I could recognize patterns I wanted to change and still find myself overwhelmed by the intensity of my responses. But willingness was not the same as capacity.
I had spent years in therapy. A great deal of therapy. EMDR, cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), internal family systems (IFS), and more approaches than I could easily list. I had invested so much money in my mental health that I could have practically paid for a college degree. And that was only the financial cost.
There were appointments, the hours spent examining painful experiences, the emotional exhaustion, and the hope that accompanied each new approach. My search extended beyond treatment: I even participated in research studies focused on severe depression and its associated symptoms. I wanted answers, and I was willing to contribute to the work of finding them.
I also completed an eighteen-month Kundalini yoga program and attended intensive pranic programs lasting weeks at a time. I practiced meditation and breathwork. I studied, reflected, examined my patterns, and kept trying, even while maintaining employment and struggling with the demands of everyday life.
Meditation was not simply unhelpful. Living with PTSD, I sometimes found that sitting in silence brought traumatic responses rushing forward. I wanted peace, but the practice that was supposed to lead me there could leave me feeling anything but peaceful.
I had accumulated years of knowledge about my suffering, but knowledge alone had not given me the capacity to live the life I wanted. I was strongly kinesthetically oriented; I understood much of my experience through movement and sensation. Eventually I began to wonder whether my body might offer a different doorway.
Learning about heart rate variability became a turning point. It led me to reconsider caffeine, give it up, and invest in an indoor cycle. I began approaching physical conditioning as part of healing rather than something separate from it. I also explored Tension & Trauma Releasing Exercises (TRE), which helped me experience relief from muscular tension and moments of calm.
I was not giving up on healing. I was beginning to approach it differently.
The Day Everything Pivoted
I still don't fully understand why learning about heart rate variability affected me so profoundly. But I remember the day I first read about it. My whole experience pivoted.
I had already spent years trying to understand my trauma, my depression, my exhaustion, and the patterns that followed me into adulthood. I had done so much work looking inward. Then I encountered an idea that made me look at the physical conditions of my life in a different way.
Heart rate variability. HRV.
I can't tell you precisely why those words opened something for me. I hadn't yet discovered what regular cardio would do for my energy. I hadn't arrived at an explanation for all the years I'd spent feeling depleted. But suddenly I had a new question: what if I needed to work with my body's capacity, not only with the stories and feelings I carried?
That was the day my direction changed.
Understanding Heart Rate Variability
The heart does not beat at perfectly even intervals. The small variations between successive normal heartbeats are called heart rate variability, or HRV. Although the term sounds like an irregular pulse, it usually describes ordinary beat-to-beat variation measured in milliseconds. Researchers analyze these intervals in several ways, and the meaning of a result depends on how, when, and for how long it was recorded.
HRV gave me a new way to think about the connection between my heart, my nervous system, effort, and recovery. I was fascinated by the idea that the body responds to the demands of life in ways I had barely considered. It made me curious about my own energy, my habits, and what I might change.
For me, learning about HRV mattered before I had any results to measure. It offered a way to think about recovery that did not depend entirely on trying harder to control my thoughts. I could begin paying attention to physical demands and recovery, and to how daily habits affected my ability to function. That shift helped motivate two concrete decisions: giving up caffeine and bringing an indoor cycle into my life.
Why Heart Rate Variability Matters
What fascinated me about heart rate variability was that it revealed something I had never fully understood about the nervous system.
A healthy heart doesn't beat like a metronome. Even at rest, the intervals between beats change slightly. That variation is called heart rate variability, or HRV, and it offers a window into how the autonomic nervous system responds to the changing demands of life.
The autonomic nervous system helps regulate functions we rarely think about consciously: heartbeat, blood pressure, digestion, and aspects of our stress response. Its sympathetic and parasympathetic pathways work together to help us mobilize when something requires action and recover when that demand has passed.
The goal isn't to remain permanently relaxed. We need the capacity to become active, respond appropriately, and then recover.
That ability to shift between states was what caught my attention.
I had spent so much of my life exhausted, struggling with depression, and experiencing trauma-related activation that I had come to think primarily in terms of my psychological symptoms. But HRV introduced me to another dimension of the problem: the body's capacity to adapt and recover.
And the implications extended far beyond how I felt on any particular day.
Research has found that lower HRV is associated with increased risks of cardiovascular and all-cause mortality across large populations. HRV isn't a crystal ball, and raising a number doesn't automatically extend someone's life. But the association is significant. It tells us that the body's patterns of autonomic regulation have meaningful relationships with long-term health.
I began to understand why cardiovascular conditioning might matter for more than endurance or physical fitness.
Regular exercise can improve several measures of HRV, including measures associated with parasympathetic, or vagal, regulation. With repeated training and recovery, the cardiovascular system can become better conditioned to meet physical demands. These changes are part of a much larger picture of health and resilience.
Suddenly, the relationship between movement and nervous-system regulation was no longer abstract to me.
I wasn't simply looking for another way to feel calm. I wanted greater capacity: the ability to respond to life without becoming so thoroughly depleted, and to recover without remaining caught in a state of activation.
That realization changed how I approached my body.
I stopped thinking of cardiovascular exercise as something separate from my psychological work. I began to see it as a way of building the physical foundation that might make more of that work possible.
And eventually, through cardio and tremulation, I discovered something I hadn't expected: I could move, release accumulated muscular tension, and allow myself to settle inward.
The stillness I had been searching for became more accessible when I stopped demanding it from an exhausted body.
I was not conducting a clinical trial. I was trying to reclaim my life.
And understanding HRV helped me see that caring for my heart, strengthening my capacity for recovery, and tending to my psyche did not have to be separate pursuits.
Cardiovascular Conditioning and the Capacity to Recover
Regular aerobic exercise asks the cardiovascular and respiratory systems to meet changing demands and then recover. Over time, appropriate training can improve cardiorespiratory fitness. Some studies also report changes in resting HRV measures following exercise training, but results vary by population, exercise program, recording method, and HRV metric. What caught my attention was the possibility of building capacity through movement.
For me, indoor cycling offered a form of movement I could return to. Rather than treating exercise as an achievement separate from healing, I began to understand it as part of the physical conditions that supported my daily functioning. In my experience, greater energy made it easier to approach practices that had previously felt inaccessible.
I felt the lift of exercise in my mood, the clarity returning to my mind, and the strength growing in my heart. I thought of the endorphins that came with movement, too. I still don't know every reason cardio made such a difference for me. What I know is how unmistakably different I felt—and how much that mattered after a lifetime of exhaustion.
A Bicycle. Of All Things.
After everything I had tried, everything I had studied, and everything I had spent trying to recover my mental health, I still find the answer almost comically unexpected.
Cardio.
I still have to laugh. Years of therapy, research participation, an eighteen-month yoga program, weeks of pranic practice—and there I was, pedaling away on a stationary bicycle. A bicycle that did not even go anywhere.
And something began to change. I had energy. Actual energy. For someone who had lived with chronic fatigue for as long as I could remember, that was extraordinary.
After spending what amounted to a college education trying to heal my psyche, I discovered that one of the most important things I could do was get on a bicycle that went absolutely nowhere. And somehow, it took me further than anything else had.
The bicycle did not erase the work I had done. It helped me begin putting that work to use.
I had spent years pursuing the vitality promised through yoga, breathwork, meditation, and spiritual practice. Eighteen months of Kundalini yoga. Intensive pranic programs that lasted weeks. I wanted that vitality desperately: the energy, clarity, and sense of aliveness I had been searching for.
But despite all that effort, I remained exhausted. Then I began cycling, and there it was—the vitality yoga had promised me, but only cardio had delivered.
I still laugh at the absurdity. I had tried so hard to go inward, and there I was pedaling a bicycle that did not move an inch, feeling my life begin to move again.
When Coping Becomes Part of the Problem: Caffeine, Fatigue, and Recovery
I had been consuming excessive amounts of coffee since I was young. For years, caffeine helped push me through a level of fatigue that made ordinary responsibilities exhausting.
But over time, I began experiencing increasingly concerning symptoms, including irregular heartbeats and what felt like further nervous-system dysregulation, among other adverse effects associated with excessive caffeine consumption.
What mattered was the pattern I observed. Whenever I stopped drinking coffee for an extended period, those symptoms gradually subsided. In my experience, it often took three to five months before I could fully appreciate the difference.
I began to recognize that something I had relied upon to function was also contributing to my difficulties.
I was using stimulation to push through exhaustion rather than developing the underlying capacity to recover from it.
Reading the DSM-5 material on caffeine was revealing. I recognized aspects of my own relationship with the substance in its descriptions. I did not need to turn that recognition into a clinical label for it to matter.
Discovering HRV helped me understand why this distinction mattered. I no longer wanted to force my body through another day. I wanted to build the cardiovascular health, vitality, and capacity for regulation that might allow me to participate in life differently.
I didn't want to keep pushing an exhausted body harder. I wanted to help it become stronger.
When Stillness Isn't Safe: Meditation and Trauma
For a long time, I understood meditation as something that should help me become calmer and more present. I practiced stillness, breathwork, and other approaches because I wanted relief and a way to participate more fully in my recovery. Yet stillness did not always feel restorative. At times, meditation brought traumatic responses closer to the surface, and I found myself more activated rather than more settled.
That experience complicated the advice I often encountered about simply sitting with difficult feelings. I wanted to engage with my inner life, but wanting to do so did not mean I always had the capacity to remain present without becoming overwhelmed. I had worked hard at these practices. What I needed was permission to notice what was actually happening to me.
Meditation is not one uniform activity. Practices differ in their attention targets, duration, instructions, and degree of inward focus. Some people find contemplative practices beneficial; others report distressing experiences, including anxiety, dissociation, or the resurfacing of difficult memories. My experience of being overwhelmed in stillness was real, and it helped me understand why I needed another way in.
I began to make room for a different entry point. Movement gave me something concrete to do with my body. Indoor cycling offered rhythm and physical engagement at a time when extended stillness was difficult for me. As my energy improved, I experienced more capacity to approach reflection and emotional work. I was not giving up on awareness; I was changing how I arrived there.
A trauma-sensitive approach allows for choice. Someone might prefer shorter practices, open eyes, attention to external surroundings, movement rather than stillness, or the option to stop. I began to see choice itself as part of my recovery.
TRE, Muscular Tension, and Somatic Practice
Movement was not the only body-oriented practice I explored. I also began experimenting with Tension & Trauma Releasing Exercises (TRE), a structured approach that uses a sequence of exercises intended to elicit involuntary shaking or tremoring. In my experience, this practice sometimes helped me notice and ease muscular tension and feel calmer afterward.
TRE also occupied a different place in my routine from cycling. Cardiovascular exercise became a way to work on physical conditioning and everyday energy. TRE was a practice through which I attended to bodily tension and my immediate sense of settling. I experienced these as complementary, not interchangeable, and neither was a replacement for reflection, relationships, or other forms of support.
Body-focused practices can feel grounding for some people and activating or uncomfortable for others. Tremoring, intense sensations, or memories may be distressing, especially for someone living with trauma-related symptoms. No reader should interpret this account as an instruction to provoke shaking, persist through distress, or attempt unsupervised trauma processing. People considering a somatic practice can seek appropriate professional guidance and stop or modify an activity that feels unsafe.
What I can say, without turning my experience into a prescription, is that learning to pay attention to bodily tension became another part of learning to care for myself. The question was no longer only how to think differently, but how to notice what I was carrying physically and choose practices that supported me.
TRE in Trauma Recovery: Veterans and Emerging Research
TRE has also been investigated in military and veteran settings. That history deserves attention, particularly because it includes both a published individual case report and a controlled trial report. It is important, however, to distinguish promising outcomes from definitive evidence of treatment effectiveness.
In 2019, Richmond Heath and Jill Beattie published a case report in the Journal of Military and Veterans' Health describing an Australian former soldier with PTSD following a motor vehicle accident and acquired brain injury. The report described improvements in perceived stress and well-being following TRE practice, including follow-up observations. This is a documented individual experience, not a controlled test of what caused the improvement or evidence that the same result will occur for others.
A separate randomized study described in a 2018 technical report by Martha Kent compared TRE with similar exercises without tremoring and a wait-list control among veterans receiving standard psychiatric care. PTSD symptoms improved over time in both the TRE and comparison-exercise groups, but the report did not find a statistically significant difference between groups in PTSD symptom change. Some cognitive outcomes differed across groups, while sleep findings were less conclusive. I was interested in these accounts because they reflected a broader curiosity about what people were discovering through body-based practices.
A 2026 scoping review by Roos, van Niekerk, and Tönsing mapped 22 TRE studies and found potential benefits alongside inconsistent research rigor. The research was still developing, and I wanted to keep learning.
I Could Not Wait for Science to Catch Up
I did not begin exploring these practices because I had found definitive scientific proof that they would work for me. I began because my circumstances had become difficult enough that I needed to find another way forward.
I had already spent years trying approaches that were supposed to help. Some offered benefits, but I was still struggling with exhaustion, traumatic activation, and the limitations those experiences placed on my life. I could not put my recovery on hold while waiting for every possible approach to be fully understood, researched, and verified.
So I explored. I observed. I paid attention to what happened when I changed my habits and introduced different practices. Some things helped. Others did not help in the ways I had hoped.
My experience with cardiovascular exercise and TRE became meaningful not because I could explain every biological mechanism involved, but because of the changes I experienced in my everyday life.
Scientific research remains valuable to me. It helps us ask better questions, recognize risks, and distinguish what we know from what we suspect. But I do not believe that the absence of conclusive research means we must disregard our own observations.
I was not conducting a clinical trial. I was trying to reclaim my life.
And I needed to begin with the possibilities available to me.
The Floor I Had Been Missing
Cardio did more for my lifelong chronic fatigue than anything else I had tried. The endorphin lift I felt, the clarity of mind, the growing strength of my heart, and the energy returning to my days gave me something I had been searching for all along.
For years I had been trying to heal while exhausted. I had learned so much about trauma, relationships, and my own patterns. But I was trying to put that knowledge to work without the strength to carry it.
Cardiovascular exercise gave me a new floor to stand on. It did not do the emotional work for me. It gave me the energy and clarity to begin doing that work differently. Suddenly, more of what I had learned became available to me in daily life.
After spending roughly the cost of a college education trying to heal my psyche, I found a foundation for moving forward on a bicycle that went absolutely nowhere.
But I did. And that made all the difference.
Movement, Tremulation, and the Stillness That Followed
There was another discovery I hadn't expected: cardio didn't just give me more energy for the rest of my life. It changed how I entered stillness.
For years, I had approached meditation by trying to become still first. During my eighteen months of Kundalini yoga and the intensive pranic programs I completed, I learned kriyas and other practices intended to prepare the body and attention for meditation. I gave those practices a real chance. But when trauma-related activation arose, sitting down and turning inward could intensify what I was feeling instead of helping me settle.
Eventually, I realized that for those moments, I didn't need another kriya. I needed cardio and tremulation.
Brisk cardiovascular exercise brought the circulation, physical engagement, and sense of rejuvenation that I had been missing. Afterward, I felt more awake, clearer, and better able to turn my attention inward. TRE—tension and trauma releasing exercises, with their tremulation or shaking—became another way I worked with the muscular tension I was carrying. I experienced that shaking as a release of tension, not as a substitute for understanding my history or doing the emotional work.
Rather than sitting down to meditate while exhausted, tense, or overwhelmed, I could first move my body through cardiovascular exercise, work with accumulated tension through tremulation, and allow myself to settle inward.
The stillness that followed was different. It felt deeper and more accessible. I wasn't fighting my body to become quiet. I was arriving at quiet through movement and release.
Cardio gave me vitality. Tremulation helped me release tension. Together, they allowed me to settle inward.
I still smile at the irony. I had spent years trying to become still enough to heal, only to discover that moving vigorously—and pedaling a bicycle that went absolutely nowhere—could help me reach the very stillness I had been seeking.
Movement wasn't the opposite of meditation. For me, it became the doorway into it. And the practices I'd learned before weren't wasted; I could approach inward attention from a different place, with more capacity to be present.
Multiple Pathways into Healing
I once approached recovery as though there must be one correct practice I had not yet mastered. I kept returning to stillness and reflection, even when my experience suggested that I needed something else first. The change came when I stopped treating my body as an obstacle to the work and began treating it as part of the work.
For me, physical conditioning became an entry point. Learning about heart rate variability changed how I thought about stress and recovery; indoor cycling became a repeatable form of movement; reconsidering caffeine changed how I responded to fatigue; and TRE offered another way to notice muscular tension. These experiences did not answer every question or remove the need for emotional work. They helped me find a more workable beginning.
Healing may involve many kinds of support. Physical practices can address movement, conditioning, rest, and daily routines. Emotional practices can help people name feelings and make room for them without demanding that they endure overwhelming distress. Cognitive approaches can help examine beliefs and patterns. Relational approaches can support boundaries, repair, connection, and accountability. Contemplative practices can offer reflection or meaning when their form and timing suit the person. These categories overlap; they are not stages that everyone must complete in a prescribed order.
I also learned to be cautious about interpreting discomfort as evidence of progress. A difficult reaction can be meaningful information, but it does not automatically mean a practice is working. Sometimes it is a signal to pause, adjust, seek support, or choose a different approach. The capacity to make that choice is part of what I wanted to recover.
The next essay, The Capacity to Stay, will explore what changed after I began to experience more energy. Before that, I did not have the bandwidth to engage with some of my trauma-related triggers in the way I wanted. Later, I found more room to notice activation, make choices, and gradually reclaim a sense of agency. That is the story of what became possible for me—not a demand that anyone else confront distress before they are ready.
Reader Reflection: Finding Your Own Doorway
Discomfort is information, not an instruction. A difficult feeling does not automatically mean I should push through, withdraw, or interpret it as growth. The first question is what kind of discomfort I am experiencing—and whether I have enough safety, support, and capacity to respond thoughtfully.
For much of my life, discomfort was familiar. I had learned how to function through it. The discovery I want to share is not that I became better at suffering. As my energy improved, I began to experience more choices about what to do next. Some discomfort called for attention and patient reflection. Some pointed toward exhaustion or an unmet need. Some called for a boundary, a change in circumstances, or concrete action. And some experiences contained more than one of those things at once.
The questions below are invitations to reflect, not tests to pass or instructions to confront traumatic memories. Readers can skip any question, write only a few words, or explore it with a trusted support person.
1. What does discomfort mean to me? Which kinds have become so familiar that I barely notice them?
2. In this moment, does the discomfort seem connected to exertion, fatigue, grief, uncertainty, an unmet need, a difficult responsibility, a relationship, or a possible threat? Could several be present together?
3. What information do I actually have about the situation? What am I assuming? Is there a practical safety concern that needs attention first?
4. What would responding responsibly look like here: resting, seeking help, setting a boundary, making a repair, taking a necessary action, or allowing a feeling to pass without acting on it?
5. Do I have the energy and support for this reflection right now? If not, what might help me regain capacity without abandoning an important responsibility?
6. Am I being asked to tolerate something harmful that ought to change? Or am I avoiding a manageable but necessary conversation, boundary, or task?
7. Which forms of attention feel accessible today—walking, gentle movement, journaling, sitting quietly, talking with someone, or something else? What makes them accessible or inaccessible?
8. What would greater choice look like for me—not the absence of all discomfort, but the ability to respond with more discernment?
A Closing Invitation
I do not believe that every discomfort should be endured or that every uncomfortable response should be escaped. Sometimes healing asks for courage and action; sometimes it asks for protection and rest. The work is learning to tell the difference, with humility about what we do not yet know.
For me, the body became the doorway rather than an obstacle. I began with the conditions that made engagement possible. From there, I could begin to ask not only what I had survived, but how I wanted to live.
A Note to Readers
This essay is an account of personal experience and general education, not medical or mental-health treatment advice. Exercise, meditation, breathwork, and body-focused practices affect people differently. Anyone experiencing significant trauma-related distress, concerning physical symptoms, or uncertainty about safe activity can seek individualized guidance from an appropriately qualified professional. No reader needs to provoke distress or continue a practice that feels unsafe to benefit from reflection.
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